I'd Do Anything: A Phanfiction

Chapter 10

Chapter 10

I woke up about 15 minutes before 1 in the afternoon. I decided I can't let him leave. I'd rather live in a world in which Phil was awkward around me because of some shitty photographs than in a world without him at all.

Plus I can't let Jessica get her way that easily can I?

I got out of bed rubbing my eyes that were already raw from crying so much. I located my macbook and quickly opened it waiting impatiently as it decided to load slower than those old dinosaur computers.

Finally I opened a page with a train schedule.

There's a limited number of places Phil could've run off to on such a short notice.

While the page loaded I texted both Chris and Peej on a group message:
Either of you heard anything from Phil?

I knew that Phil would probably know I'd try this so he probably told them to not say anything.

No is he okay?

Chris was the first to respond.

"is he okay?" either they're lying or they really have no clue where he is. I was hoping for the former because the latter meant he had gone to his parents. There's nowhere else he could've gone.

No... I don't know, I'm coming over - is that okay?

I didn't wait for a response and immediately started gathering my things to go over there. I had stepped outside when a response came.

Yeah, sure

I called the first cab I saw which thankfully came in no time. I told the cabby where to go and sat back putting in my ear buds to try and calm down. About 3 songs later I arrived at Chris's flat. I paid the driver and hopped out quickly. I knocked on his door and it was almost immediately opened.

Chris stood in front of me looking more serious than I've ever seen him before.

"Dan? What is happening?"

I felt the tears threatening to fall again, but I doubt they will because I already cried out everything my tear ducts could hold. "I- I don't know." I said my voice cracking.

"Dan! Come in!" Chris said pulling me inside. He closed the door behind me and added, "I'll make you a cuppa and you can tell me if you'd like."

I just nodded in response and he hurried off to another room. I looked around Chris's lounging room for a bit. I saw a couple of photo frames sitting on a side table and went to look at them. There were a few rather humorous pictures of Chris with various things that were obviously photo shopped. One featured him as The Doctor by the T.A.R.D.I.S.

There was another photo in the middle however that wasn't photo shopped or anything of that nature. It was a picture on him and PJ at a Christmas thing two years ago. I know this because I was there. In fact my elbow could be spotted in the corner of it. They were both smiling at each other hugely and wearing those paper crowns you get out of crackers. Phil was there too. I mean he was in the background as well. More so than I was, his whole face could be seen in the shot, well given that it was blurry and out of focus it was defiantly my Phil.

My Phil.

As if one could claim another as theirs. Well there was always slavery, but that's not what I mean. He is in no way mine. I am not entitled to him. Actually now that I think of it, it's kinda childish to be chasing after him like I am. He's a grown man, he can do what he wants... but I still want him... still need him back with me.

I looked back at the photograph and at the blurry shot of Phil in the background. His head was slightly tilted in my direction. I imagine if the photo could be expanded to show what was outside that frame, I'd be seen looking back at Phil in the same way he was looking at me. He looked as if he was watching me carefully or so as to understand whatever I might have been going on about at the moment. I wish I could see him again right now.