How to Not be Awkward (Chanyeol)

LESSON #20 Just say it, confidently

"Hina?"

I looked up, heart stopping at the mere voice of what I thought to be a hallucination.

I used to find drama with these kinds of scenes scornful but now looking at Chanyeol's disheveled face, like he had ran miles, I don't think I'd ever seen a scene as beautiful as this.

I didn't even hesitate to run to him and hug him like he's the only thing that matters because right at this moment, he really is.

"I'm sorry!" was the first thing I could say "I'm so sorry Chanyeol!" I sob as I inhaled the familiar scent of him because if I'm hallucinating or something then I must be going really crazy because his scent lingers on my nose just how it always is.

I couldn't hear him over my incessant crying. All that I could comprehend right now is that he didn't go. He's in front of me and there is no way I'm not letting him know about my feelings.

My true feelings.

"Hey, why are you crying so hard?" it was the first thing I heard from him when I was able to hear him again over my own crying. He had managed to pry me away from his neck to look at my tear stained face, trying to calm me down with that look that I've miss so much that I just can't stop the tears from coming down.

"What are you doing here Hina?" he said while wiping my tears and that gave me courage. He gave me courage. I am brave and I just needed to trust him. "Nobody knows-"

I stared at him and tried to see him with my blurry eyes. How could he look so good with such sight, I don't know. "I like you Park Chanyeol. I really do and... and I'm not doing this to stop you from going away or anything. You can go but I just really want you to know that yes, I like you too and I- I'm okay with us being together and I'll be-"

"What?!" he suddenly moved over to have a good look at my face. He was shocked.

I stopped my rant at his expression, startled. "What what?"

"Where am I going?" he suddenly asked and I tilted my head in confusion.

"You're going to New York for college. Sehun told me so."

It was a moment of silence.

"I'm going to New York?" It sounded like a question which caught me off guard.

I wiped my tears to see him clearer. He had the most confused face in his face and I took notice how he doesn't have any luggage with him. Does this mean he's still going?

"Yeah, you got accepted to NYU. Sehun told me."

Then he bit his lips and clamped his forehead as if he just realized something. "Damn it. So that's why he's being as asshole about this" he murmured with a soft smile on his face. Is there something I'm missing?

"Chanyeol?" I called his name confusedly because I'm just not getting it.

He took hold both of my shoulders and faced me with a wide grin on his face.

"Yoora's the one who's going to New York not me. She got accepted to FIT, that fashion school in New York and we sent her this morning."

What?

"But... you..."

He smiled, tucking my stray hair on my ear. "I'm not going anywhere, not right now."

"So you're not... you're not?" I couldn't complete my sentence as realization came upon me. Sehun lied to me. He lied to me.

"No, it's not even graduation yet Hina of course I'm staying here till then."