Sacred Ties

Chapter Twenty

Cemil's POV

The visit to meet the family of Jonathan was really great. Though they looked fierce,they acted the opposite. They laughed and joked with me. It was really a nice meeting and I left knowing they accepted me greatly. Though the first born of the three brothers gave me the speech of 'hate my little bro and there will hell to face' I understood him because I know that's how older siblings act. I have a bunch of my own and know they would do anything to never see me cry. But life is unpredictable. There are times when you just have to get hurt, cry, laugh, smile and many more.

The first born was named Joel and the second born Julius. I guess their parents were really fascinated with the J letter. They didn't talk of their parents though and I didn't want to ask about them. Yet. Perhaps I would ask someday but not now.

I had been talking to Roman on the phone a lot, ever since I told him I found my mate. He calls most times, asking about how I was doing and how my mate was treating me. It was really nice of him but I couldn't give him honest answers. I liked Jonathan, I really did but Zach was still somehow entwined to me. I couldn't just erase him like simply. I was really working hard on forgetting him and moving on. He was happy for me just like the rest of my family, for finally meeting Jonathan.

So when he told me him his mate would be visiting me for some days, I knew the main reason. He really wanted to meet my mate and I knew I had no choice but to introduce him to Jonathan.

Jonathan has been nothing but good to me. He calls me everyday and we all kinds of things. He's never asked about Zach anymore and I was thankful he gave me some time off it. That day when he told me to forget about past and focus on future, on him, I was scared. How can you admit to your mate that you still had feelings for someone else. But Jonathan was right. I should forget all about Zach and focus on me and him.

Roman and Kenneth showed up and they had an extra with them. Lane was a good guy and I could see how much he loved the alpha couple. When I ran to hug Roman once they arrived, he moved fast enough to block Roman's fall since I pushed him down to the ground. Such dedication was rare and I was glad Lane had it all.

I had called Jonathan when Roman and Kenneth arrived, to let him know that there were two people who wanted to see him. He told me he had things to do in the morning of the next day and would be available during the afternoon. That evening I joined Roman who was watching his mate and Lane train. I couldn't help it but felt sick that moment. The love I saw between Roman and Kenneth made me sick. Not that it was bad but the goodness in it made me sick. I knew that moment that I couldn't be like them. I was messed up. Why couldn't I be happy like Roman and be loved and love in return so freely? My love life was a mess and I doubted it would ever change. I fell asleep crying, feeling sorry for myself.

So the next day, while we had breakfast, I was thinking of what to do in the morning since we were meeting Jonathan in the afternoon. I was glad when Kenneth said he had things to do that morning as well. Dealing with Roman couldn't be that hard so I was glad Kenneth would be out of that picture.

As I kept eating, I started feeling sick. The delicious smell of my food was gone in an instant and replaced by something bad. I tried to hold the food down in my stomach when I felt the need to vomit so badly. I drank water but it didn't help and in the end I ran out of the room to downstairs guest bathroom. I heaved heavily and it was the worst feeling ever. I soon felt the hand running on my back and the scent confirmed it to be Roman. After some time, the sick feeling left and I got up from the floor and washed my mouth.

When I walked back to the dining room, Ash offered to check me for any possible sickness but I waved him off. The doctor has now been joining us so many times that I'm used to it by now. Him and Liam really had successfully hit it off and they were enjoying any possible time together. I was sure I wasn't sick since the bad feeling had left me but that was soon forgotten the moment I smelled the bacon. I reacted badly and ran out to the bathroom again. It was the stupid bacon smell that was making me sick. I wondered where it was bought with the bad smell. It must have been near something bad that made it smell like that.