No Control

I Stay Clued Up

This chapter is crap, and I'm sorry! 😭

Chapter 24:

HARRY

I walked down the hall, towards the room that the nurse directed me to, but I froze at the door. Was I ready to see this? Was I ready to see Niall's mum when I was laying around and being completely unfaithful to her son? How would that feel? How twisted would that be? She was sick in the hospital, probably thinking her son had the best support system when I was literal shit. What kind of best frien- boyfriend was I?

I was suddenly second guessing this. Would the guilt be too much? Would I spill everything out to Maura? Would I end up breaking Niall's heart right now? Would she just be very disappointed in me? I didn't want to feel like an even bigger dissapointment. My parents took care of that job.

I took my hand off of the door handle, deciding to just leave, but then the door opened, and I was face to face with a doctor. "Oh, hello. Are you here to see Mrs. Horan?" He asked. He looked so young, and it was a bit surprising to just suddenly be face to face with this stranger, but I nodded ny head.

"She just fell asleep. You may still see her if you'd like. Are you related to her?" He asked as he held the door open for me. I walked into the room, seeing nothing but shades of white, medical stuff, tubes and wires, and Maura laying on the hospital bed.

"Um, no. Not exactly. She's like a second mum to me." I said, walking into the room and going over to stand near her. "Has anyone else been here today?" I asked, not really loving the idea of possibly running into Niall while I'm here.

"Mr. Horan has visited. Her son usually comes at around one. Do you know Niall?" He asked, and I nodded, not really wanting to talk about our situation. Unfortunately, he asked, and I couldn't lie because he had ties to Maura and Niall, being her doctor. "How do you know him?"

"We're, um, I'm his boyfriend." I said, not liking the taste of the words on my tongue. I felt ashamed, saying the words and knowing that he wasn't the person that I was in love with. How horrible of a person I was.

"Oh, well, nice to meet you. Niall's a great person. He's always very worried about his mum. All he ever does is ask questions about her condition. I hope you're helping him through this tough time." He said, offering me a small smile, and I nodded. Did he have to make me feel worse?

"I can only imagine how worried he is when he's seeing her. When he told me about it, he just fell apart. He is a great person. Always caring. One thing I know about Niall is that he definitely never gives up." I said, seeing the doctor nod his head.

"I can see where he got that from." He said, gesturing over to Maura, and I couldn't agree more. Both of his parents were very hardworking, balancing their struggle with rent with raising their child. I could tell it was never easy, and I admired them for that. Maybe I even admired them for not accepting my parent's money when they could have used it most.

"Well, if you need anything while you're here, you can ask for Dr. Rhys. I have to get going to my next patient. See you around, um...." He trailed off, waiting for me to tell him my name, and I couldn't believe I forgot to introduce myself.

"Oh, Harry. Harry Styles." I said, shaking the hand that he held out for me. He smiled before pointing behind him, showing that he had to go. I waved as he left before I was all alone in the room with Maura. The thing was, I had no idea what to say around her. Even if she probably couldn't hear me.

"Hey, Maura. Wow. This is actually happening." I said as I walked closer to her hospital bed, seeing her hooked up on wires that were taking her heart rate, vital signs, and anything else they needed.