No Control

Author's Note

I know I made a separate book for Author's Notes, but I just really want to let everything out. I know a lot of you probably know about Johannah, and it's obviously really heartbreaking.

What gets me the most is that none of us knew what they were all going through. We were left in the dark, but I think that was a good thing because their whole family deserves to have that time alone to be together and get through everything and anything. They are truly so close to each other, and I can only imagine how devastating this is for Louis, Lottie, Fizzy, the Phoebe, Daisy, and then the twins. Louis won't have that mother there who pushed him and supported him to follow his dreams, but he's so strong. Lottie and Fizzy won't have that woman they grew up admiring there to help them along the way anymore, but they will lean on each other like sisters do. Phoebe and Daisy won't get to experience more years with her, bit they'll trust Lottie and Fizzy when they say "When I had that problem, mom said-". It's heartbreaking that Doris and Ernest won't get to truly know their mother, only seeing her through pictures, but they'll cherish those memories. It's a bit upsetting to think that Johannah was really their rock. She taught them so well, and they lost that, but I believe that they'll still be a strong and honorable family.

I honestly have so much respect for their whole family because they stay positive even in dark times. All of them, especially Louis, do so much for charity and always try to support and help others without asking for anything in return.Johannah was the reason behind their proper upraising, teaching them what is right and what is wrong. That deserves the upmost respect.

Guys, I feel pain, and she's not even my mom, nor have I spoken to her, but she exemplified nothing but good faith and care. It's sad that bad things happen to good people, but her name will not be stained nor forgotten. I can only hope that the whole family gets through this. Where I feel like crying and panicking, they are probably broken and supporting one another to heal. I think it's best we give them space and wait patiently for Louis or any of them to speak upon it, only if they wish to of course. This anxiety I am feeling is nothing compared to how hurt they probably are to lose such an amazing mother.

Eventhough she may be gone, she will never be forgotten. The pic above is a way to get involved in supporting Louis' song and dedicating things to her.

This is a sad day, and my love and prayers go to the whole Tomlinson and Deakin family. I hope Johannah, the beautiful soul that she is- rests in peace. I know she will watch over her children, always there in spirit, and I hope they know that as well. I hope they realize how proud she is of all of them and how much she loves them.

Thanks for reading if you did, do not be ashamed to cry if you do, and tell the people you love that you love them before it's too late.

Love you all. ❤

Always in the hearts of many. xx ❤