Dear Who Ever,
Day one, it sucked. I psyched myself up to not cry the whole bus ride, then I walked into the cafeteria. It took me exactly three seconds to find him. He was wearing his leather jacket and dark colored jeans with his converse. He was looking at the ground, hair in his face, obviously depressed. He had walked away from Her table and was at a neighboring table, probably because I arrived. Then eight people came and hugged me. That made me start to cry a little. Before it could become a tear fest I left every one calling after me. Then I headed to the library with My Two Besties where there wouldn't be any one to hug me. I didn't want to cry because I know that would only make it worse for him... I don't care about what it would do to me, it breaks my heart to see him so destroyed... The only two reasons I cry are because I miss him and his pain. If I had one wish it would be to heal his broken heart.. </3 He is in so much pain and he won't talk to me at all... I gave him the letter I wrote today, our last letter... </3 I returned his jacket to him and put it in the pocket. He said he would read it today when he got home. It's almost eight o'clock and he hasn't said any thing... The letter said:
Dear Him,
I know you feel really horrible for what happened between us. I just want you to know, it's alright. I am sad because I was happy with you but I'm not mad or upset or angry. I don't blame you one bit. We want what we want and nothing will ever change that. I know you will need some time apart, as will I but perhaps afterwards we can still be friends? You are welcome to write me back if you want, I don't expect a letter though. Assuming this is the last time I will talk to you for a little while, I ask one thing. Please be happy.. Don't let guilt drag you down. Keep smiling, don't get all depressed.
Your friend,
Me
I hope this letter will help him heal at least a little bit. If guilt is a big problem for him right now then it should, but if not then I don't think it did any thing... </3 I miss him so much it hurts :( Just to have one more hug, a kiss. Any thing to be close to him one last time... I would be overjoyed if he would just talk to me. If he would make eye contact I would be mega happy. Just some thing to say that what we had wasn't nothing... This break up has made me cherish him even more which probably isn't good considering I'm supposed to be moving on.. :( I care about him so much, but if he knew that it would cause him more heart ache and I refuse to do that. Is this what it feels like to lose some one you loved or still do love? I don't know if it's love but I do know I care about him a ton and I can't just move on.. He still has my heart, whether or not he wants it. I was content earlier that I had moved on or was starting to move on but I think I was lying to myself, hoping I would believe it... It didn't work for long. </3
-Your Faithful Writer
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The dedication goes to brokenpencil21 for the comforting advice given in a time of need. I don't know you at all but your kind heart shines like a light house and I would like to thank you for that :)
