Dear Who Ever,
I know what I need to do to start healing.. I need to let go of this love. I need to stop hoping with any part of me that everything will turn out better because He and I were not meant to be. I need to accept that, no matter how much it hurts. Yes I will always have a place for him in my heart but at least for now I need to shut off that conection he has to my very soul. He doesn't deserve that conection, I now know that. I want to stop hurting so bad and now I know what I need to do. It is just so hard to let go of something I cherished so much... I don't know when something so amazing will come again. That's what scares me, I want Love so much that I'm scared to let go of the first glimpse. I need to accept that something greater will come one day and that this glimpse will be nothing compared to what awaits me. I know I need to accept it but it just hurts so much.. Holding onto something not meant to be will hurt worse I know but parts of me don't care how much it hurts.. I want relief from this horrid heart ache. I need relief.. Why can't I just let go of it? Why am I doing this to myself? I know what would help yet part of me doesn't give up what was and never will be... God, please help me to finally let go of all of this pain. It's not doing anything good for me so please take it away so I may start to heal... </3
-Your Faithful Writer
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If you are a praying person, please pray for me. This is already hard and I don't see it getting any easier. Thanks! <3
