Dear Him,
I didn't have to ask you, instead I got your letter which told me you do still have feelings for me. My heart exploded with joy when I saw that because that means there is at least a small chance we can get back together... but then I saw you leaving the school with her... You hang out with her all afternoon but you won't even look at me?? Talk about a stab to the heart.. We used to be best friends, then it became some thing greater, now it's nothing. You won't speak a word to me, you won't even make eye contact!!
I saw you smile today which was fantastic, my heart stopped and my stomach did flips. You will always have this effect, no matter what. I'm glad to see you happy even if it was just for a second. Keep smiling despite what happens.
I know I said I was only feeling sad but you were right. You did hurt me, how could you not? When you left me it was pretty darn painful. I cared, and still do, about you so much it's terrifying. I am plunging head first into this and you aren't. You seem so sad and guilty but you just ignore me.. That is what hurts so bad. When we broke up, I lost you completely... I didn't realize just how much you mean to me. I'm not sure if it's mutual or not but I needed to tell you. I can't keep up with all this pain. There is only one thing that can fix it. I need you, all the time. You have my heart and how can some one live with their heart so far away? You are so distant, it is breaking me bit by bit... Either it gets fixed or it gets forgotten. I don't want to forget, this time with you has been unbelievably amazing. Wait, no not amazing, it's been wonderful. Absolutely wonderful.
My heart is crying out, can you hear it? I know you still have feelings for me so I can't move on. As long as there is a slight chance we could get back together I won't move on. Even if I wanted to, which I don't, I couldn't. I'm so very sorry if these confessions have caused you any tears or heartache... I don't mean for it to.. please just think about giving us another chance. Any disagreements we have, we will work it out. We will cross that bridge when it comes. Also, just remember, I am really new to this world of dating and need to take it slow. I'm sorry for every thing, even if you believe it's your fault.
-Me
