They Didn't Know (A Minizerk Fanfiction) {HIATUS}

Chapter 6: Hurting

Vikk's POV (oooo different):

Josh is really worried about Simon, and it worries me how distressed he is about it. This isn't like Simon, and we all know that, I know it, Jide knows it, Josh knows it, and not knowing why he's like this isn't good for any of us. It's affecting Josh the most, for obvious reasons, because Simon's his best friend, the two of them are as close as they could be. Nothing can break them, at least nothing could. Something's wrong with Simon but he won't tell anyone, not even Josh, and Josh is breaking more and more with everyday that him and Simon don't talk. So I'm making it my mission to talk to Simon, and to repair their friendship. I can't bare to see them both so down.

Since Jide is out of the house at the moment, I'll have to talk to him when he gets back. In the mean time, I'm going to go up and speak to Simon straight up, maybe not the best approach, but I can try to get him to talk.

I stood outside his door, listening for any sounds to see if he was recording... Nothing. I knocked lightly a couple of times, listening for any movement from inside, any signs to say what Simon could be doing. Again, nothing. Maybe he thinks it's Josh. He seems to have more of a problem with Josh.

"Hey Simon, it's Vikk." I say against the door, hoping for some sort of response, anything. But yet again, I was met with silence. Nothing. No speaking or mumbling, no movement of the door, not even any shuffling from inside. I tried the door handle. Nothing. He'd locked himself inside, clearly he really doesn't want to talk to us.

"Simon, if you don't want to talk, it's okay. Just listen to me please." I know he won't respond, but the least I can do is try and tell him what's going on.

Simon's POV:

I heard him knock, I heard him say it was Vikk, so I knew it wasn't Josh,I heard him try the door handle, but I couldn't answer him. It was like I was stuck where I was, like I was glued to my chair staring into space. And then I heard his little speech, and it hit me straight in the heart.

"We're all worried about you, don't think we haven't noticed your change in personality and just in yourself. Josh is especially worried, I mean, he's your best friend, of course he's the most worried. He doesn't know was happened, he doesn't understand why you've changed. He thinks he's done something wrong but he just doesn't know what. He's gotten so down, and he's starting to beat himself up because you won't talk to him and he thinks he's failed as a friend. I can see it Simon, he's hurting and it's hurting me to see him, to see you both, like that. Please Simon, talk to one of us, any of us, we all care about you."

I couldn't not respond to that. I was hurting my friends. Josh was beating himself up because of me. He thinks he's failed as a friend. And it's all down to me. He deserves an explanation, yet, I can't give him one.

I move from my chair towards the door to open it before Vikk went back to his room. I probably looked a mess from my lack of sleep and the occasional crying I'd done, but I don't really care. And what are you going to tell him exactly? The truth, I need to get it off my chest. How much of it? The being gay part, or the crush? Just that I'm gay, the part about the crush is never coming out if I can help it. And what if he doesn't accept you? I'll just have to risk it. He's shown no signs of being homophobic, but I'm not sure how he'll react to his friend being gay. I guess I'll just have to take the chance.

A/N: Sorry for the really random updates, I was planning in doing them every other day but that didn't go as planned. I will try and update regularly.

Also, thanks for 300 reads, this is really bizarre!

Bye x