They Didn't Know (A Minizerk Fanfiction) {HIATUS}

Chapter 26: Phew

Josh's POV:

Waiting outside Nandos, I felt my palms begin to get sweaty as I played all the possible scenarios through my head for what must have been the 20th time today. She could hate me and break up with me straight away, then go on to expose this fact to all my friends and fans just to get back at me. Or she could just accept it and carry on as if nothing changed. I don't know how she'll react, and that's what worries me.

A car pulling up to my left disrupts me from my thoughts, as I see Freya step out from the back, dressed in black skinny jeans, a white crop top, a black denim jacket and her knee-high black heeled boots. Even for just an afternoon meeting, she makes a lot of an effort and she looks good.

"Hey Frey." I say, embracing her and kissing her lightly.

"Hey Joshy." She replies, as we walk in. No way to back out now, time to do this.

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I've decided that now is the perfect opportunity to ask Freya, having both just finished our food.

"Hey Frey, so the reason why I asked you to come today is to ask your opinion on something," she nodded, signalling for me to carry on, "what do you think of people who are bisexual?"

She was silent for a while, a long enough time to make me think I'd made a mistake by asking this question and should crawl into a dark corner now, never to come out again. It felt like someone had pressed paused or put this moment into slow motion. When she finally spoke, I felt the world quickly return to normal speed once again, as if nothing had happened.

"Well.. what a strange question. I don't think they're any different to anyone else, really, I don't see a problem with them. I mean, I don't really understand how someone could like both genders at the same time, but I guess people don't choose their sexuality so I'm not going to hate them for it. At the end of the day, a person's sexuality shouldn't change how others see them." Well that's a huge weight off my shoulders. She paused for while, before continuing. "Why'd you ask?" And here comes the moment of judgement, the moment I've been dreading.

"I think I'm bisexual." I mumble, kinda hoping that she didn't hear it, but at the same time hoping she did so I wouldn't have to repeat myself.

"What was that?" Dammit

"I think I'm bisexual." I repeated, louder this time, looking down whilst fiddling with my hands.

"Well... okay... that's unexpected. Who's made you think that? Is it one of the boys? Do you not love me anymore?" The sudden flurry of questions took me by surprise.

"I..." Sort yourself out Josh. "It's no one in particular, I've just found myself looking at people in a different way, like mentally saying guys look fit or whatever. No it isn't one of the boys, so you need to forget that idea. And of course I still love you, this doesn't change anything between us, unless you don't accept me, then it does." I felt myself speed up as I spoke, but I tried my best to remain calm.

"No, I accept you, it's just a strange thought, but I'll have to get used to it, won't I? That's fine, it'll just take a while." Phew.

*****

Simon's POV:

This feeling of numbness just won't go away. It's as if I feel nothing. All day I've struggled to smile and be genuinely happy, I've struggled to focus on anything, hell, I even struggled to rage at FIFA earlier. That's how bad it is. I just want to be normal, like everyone else. I don't see any of the other guys struggling with problems like me. And I don't know what's triggered all this again, I was just getting back to the stage of happy again. I've been feeling like this for two weeks... Shit. Two weeks ago was my birthday. What the hell happened that night?

Josh's POV:

Arriving back home, I walked into the kitchen to find Simon at the counter, staring blankly at a can of red bull, obviously deep in thought.

"Hey Simon." I say, opening the cupboard to get a glass, so that I could have some Dr. Pepper.

He looked up, clearly breaking out of his trance, and a smile formed on his face. "Hey Josh, where you been?"

"I've been out with Freya, we haven't been out together in a while so I thought it would be nice." His smile faltered as I said that, but he quickly regained it, although this time it seemed fake. Wait, is Simon jealous? So he does seriously like me? It wasn't just the alcohol speaking?

"Nice, you've spent so much time recording and working that you deserve the break."

"Thanks bro." I smiled back at him, but I can't tell if he's just saying that to make me happy or if he's genuinely happy that I've had a break to see Freya. Most likely the first. Oh well, I guess that's probably not something to talk to him about, if I want him to still talk to me from now on.

A/N: Hey guys, I'm back at this writing thing again 😂

I just want to say thank you for all the support I've had, not just recently, but since this book started. It's crazy to think that when I started, I expected no reads or votes or comments, and I expected to delete it after like 5 chapters. But here I am at chapter 26, with 20K reads and a determination to finish this book. I cannot thank you guys enough for this ❤❤❤

Until next time x