They Didn't Know (A Minizerk Fanfiction) {HIATUS}

Chapter 25: Realisation

Josh's POV:

It's been 2 weeks since Simon's birthday. 2 weeks since I got jealous because Simon flirted with another man. And 2 weeks since Simon called me babe. It's been gnawing for 2 weeks, without me saying a single word to him or anyone, but I do want to. I want to confront him about it so badly but I don't want to scare him into not talking to me again, I don't want to lose him.

The fact that he might like me and the fact that him snuggling into me felt so right has made me think... about myself. About whether I'm truly straight, like I've always told myself I am. I've felt for a while that my feelings towards Freya have changed, but I could never work out why or how. Thinking about it now, though, it's as if I've fallen out of love with her, or as if I've been falling out of love for a while. But what can be done? You've been with her for so long that breaking up now would be stupid and cause unsettlement both within our families and within the fan base. But I can't stay with her and lead her on if I don't love her, she doesn't deserve that.

At the same time, though, I still look at her -well, and other girls- and think "she's hot" or whatever, but recently I've also started doing that with guys too, hell, I've even thought it about Simon when we've been recording. But I've always dismissed it as a friendly remark, a confidence boost if I'd said it out loud to him. Thinking about it now, maybe there is more to it.  I think...I think I'm bisexual.

But where do I go from here? Do I tell Frey and risk her leaving me because I'm bisexual? Would that really be that bad though? I guess I just don't want things to change after so long. But you'd rather be with someone else. I honestly don't know what I want anymore.

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After a lot of deliberation, I decided telling Freya sooner, rather than later, would be the best option. But the problem is: how? So far, the best suggestion I've come up with is to ask her opinion on people who are bisexual and then to come out to her if she isn't completely against them.

Me: Hey Frey, are you free to meet up for lunch or something tomorrow? x

Frey❤: I'm free whenever, what's this about? xx

Me: I just need to talk to you about something, and maybe some advice x

Frey❤: Okay, well I'll try to help as much as I can xx

Me: Thanks x

Frey❤: So where and when? xx

Me: Nandos, around 4 ish? x

Frey❤: Sounds good, see ya then xx

Me: See ya then x

Right, now all I have to do is work out how I'm gonna approach this. Do I start the conversation with "Hey Frey, what do you think of bisexual people? Do you have a problem with them? Because I'm bisexual." No, too straight forward. I'll sort something.

A/N: Hey guys, it's been a while, but here's a new chapter 😊 it's only short, but I didn't want to drag it out unnecessarily.

Also, in this A/N, I'd like thank, and dedicate this chapter to, X-Spirit_Wolf-X for their lovely and supportive comments recently. I'd also like to say thank you to everyone that has commented supportive and nice things, about anything, on any of my chapters, it means a lot to me ❤😊❤