Mute.

[37] - broken

[37] - broken

you ever find yourself between love and like?

J.

justin. justin never had to forgive anyone for anyone, because no one had ever asked for it. he'd never had someone come up to him and apologize for anything.

so, when it finally happened, justin didn't know what to do. .
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justin slowly opened his eyes to see that he was still in the living room of yazy's home. the television that was usually on, was turned off, and the lights were dimmed down. he didn't have to look at a clock to see if it were night, because the opened curtains told him.

with a silent yawn, justin stretched his limbs. he rubbed his right eye, before he got up from the couch. as he got up, he knew that he heard voices from the kitchen. he heard the hushed voices, once he reached the hallway that would take him to the kitchen, almost instantly. his brain couldn't process the voices, but he'd know who it was once he reach the room.

he stopped when he stood in the archway of the kitchen. and, he couldn't believe his broken eyes. maybe they were playing some type of trick on him, because when he looked into the kitchen, he saw season standing there with yazy.

yazy saw justin first, her eyes diverting towards him. she had never been in a situation like this, and didn't know what to do first. she tried to look away from him, and she hoped that season didn't notice it.

but, season caught on to yazy's staring. she wanted to know what had suddenly taken all her attention. she quickly looked in the direction that yazy had been glancing in, and saw him. she froze in her spot, her lips gaping open in awe and surprise.

just the sight of his face made season was to to run over to him and tell him how sorry and shitty she felt about this whole situation. she knew he had to be upset and angry, seeing that he wasn't at his own home, and he wouldn't answer her texts.

justin, on the other hand, inhaled the air around him, sharply. their eyes met, and it made his heart break to see those big, beautiful brown eyes. those same eyes that, only days ago, would captivate him. today, they looked sad.

"justin," season whispered his name through her lips. the sound of his name coming from her lips, made him cringe away from where he stood. he couldn't stand there and just look at her. it hurt him too much.

she doesn't want you, she hates you. . .
that malice voice invaded his mind, with those sharp words. that hit him like knives. the words would stab at his self esteem and his heart. he hated how vulnerable he was and is.

yazy and season both watched in horror and panic, as justin stumbled backwards, his eyes closed and his hands to his ears. they had no idea what kind of battle justin had with himself. . .on a daily basis.

look at you, you mute, little boy. no one will ever want you, justin, why can't you get that through your head? the words only got worse and louder for justin, and the two women only feet away couldn't do anything to help him. it was almost like he was trapped in his own mind.

"justin!" yazy was the first to respond to justin's behavior, season found herself still in a trance. she watched, as yazy ran to justin's side, as he hunched over. they could almost hear his breathy exhales. yazy kept calling his name, trying to grasp his attention, but he was long gone.