Trigger warning: Self harm, mentions of suicide, mental health and graphic.
------------------
The space in between my fingers holds the object I love, the only thing that cares for me.
No one loves me but this shiny metal does, it cuddles me with pain at first but by the end it's making me feel relieved pulling the weight off my shoulders.
Oh I love it, it's beautiful. It relieves me releasing the blood from my body making me feel empty but that's only because it loves me.
When we first met it was my best friend helping me when I was sad telling me it was all going to be okay, it made beautiful marks on my skin reminding me that I am alive.
"I am worthless.." I would whisper to myself but it would always come out and tell me 'But you're alive'
It was my best friend until Patrick came along and caught me with it, he took my only friend. I didn't want to make another, I would try to steal it back but Patrick just wasn't having it.
He put my best friend in his pocket and cleaned up the beautiful marks it gave me, I screamed and yelled for him to stop covering the beautiful marks from my best friend, he wouldn't listen he said "I'm you're best friend Pete and I will help you".....I didn't wanna listen...
I would find ways to steal it from him as he didn't flush it but he always got it back, I don't understand why he didn't throw my friend away but he never gave me a straight answer.
One last time I tried to steal it back, Patrick got an angry look in his eyes before he rolled up the sleeve of his hoodie pushing my friend into his skin.
He told me, "Is this what you want!?" But I did not want that, he looked in pain. Seeing him like this made me hate myself for what I had made him feel.
I grabbed his arm taking my 'best friend' from him, "No.." I whispered in a hushed tone before I walked to the bathroom opening the lid of toilet tossing what I thought was my savor in flushing it away.
I grabbed Patrick's arm cleaning the wound, "Why?" He whispered as if he were to talk normal the world would hear,
I only responded in a hushed tone, "Because you're my best friend..."
YOU ARE READING
Peterick One Shots
FanfictionHello everyone so I ship phan big time but I also ship peterick just the same so this is for all my peterick friends these are for you. Fluff, sad and smut will all be in here. Warning: Smut, trigger, self harm, suicide, death and almost everything...
