Help me

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Help me please I really need it, I just want to hurt myself and I don't know why my brain just keeps telling me I'm an idiot.

I hold the pills in my hand while thinking of the people that matter most to me. Pete.

I have no one but him, I look at the pills in my hand and start crying thinking of how I can't leave him. He said I saved his fucking life but it's time to do this.

I looked at the pills one last time before downing them dry waiting for it to work as the world goes black...

*An hour earlier* Phil's POV: (what?!)

I held the pills in my hand thinking of everything I hate about myself, everyone thinks I'm annoying but theirs only one person that cares about me. Dan.

But maybe I annoy him to, hell he hasn't texted me in a few hours maybe I'm annoying and he's done with me.

I finished dragging the blade across my stomach leaving me all bloody, I looked at the pills one last time before downing them dryly as everything went dark.....

Third person:

Once Dan and Pete found out about their best friend/person they loved had died they didn't take it so well.

They both ran away and just left everything, Dan left YouTube and Pete left the band and just everything.

A few months later Dan is standing on the edge of a bridge with a 50 foot drop into the ocean when he looks to his left and sees a figure in the distance. Pete wentz.

"You miss Patrick?" He said looking at him with bloodshot eyes and no emotion on his face what so ever,

"Yeah. You miss Phil?" Petes voice sounded raspy like he hasn't stopped crying he even sounded like he would break down at any second,

"Yeah. So on three?"

"Yeah on three"

"One.."

"Two.."

"Three!" They both said before jumping at the same time,

"I'll see you soon" They both whispered to themselves as they fell, everything went black for both of them.

They really needed those raises of sunshine that didn't want themselves.....

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Hi..... I want to say sorry for how useless how I am at updating but as you can see I only update when I'm upset because writing is my outlet and I'm a fucking hypocrite like I say you shouldn't cut because it's stupid but look at me I'm a fucking idiot......I'm sorry to those two people who know who they are I understand if you two want to leave me it's fine I understand, I mean I'm worthless and a fucking attention whore.

To be honest I have no fucking clue why I feel this way like I just want to hurt myself and I don't know why, I mean I did hold pills in my hand and almost swallowed them but it's like I wasn't even in control I don't know why I was like that I don't know and I'm still like that right now......I'm sorry Courtney I'm sorry Alex......I'm sorry.....

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