Survival Of The Fittest ~ An Attack on Titan Fanfiction

Worth

I woke up in Levi's bed, the whole squad was present, all of them eying me with worry. I averted my eyes, I was a monster, no better than Cecile and his Sister. I stared down at my hands, then rubbed Jamie's dirtied necklace, what would she think of me? What would Grams think of me? I swallowed hard, what was I supposed to do now, go back to court? I survived being alone outside the walls, to come back and severely hurt two people?! Their blood would stain my hands forever if they died from blood loss overnight.

"Quinn?" Petra removed a strand of hair from my face, her eyes watering a bit. I met her gaze, they were full of tears, full of pity. I pulled my brows together, turning my face away from her touch. "Quinn." Petra shook her head as her voice shook with worry.

"I'm not sure the squad is safe around me Captain, I don't question my sanity but I-." I choked, my eyes watering with frustration, "It's not worth the risk, I'm too violent Captain, I'm too monstrous." The scarlet "X" I had carved into Cecile's forehead, flashed into my mind.

"This world requires violence to survive." Levi came closer to my bed as he spoke, "We become what we have to, what you did was the right thing Quinn, don't question yourself." Levi shifted his stance, "This occurrence is officially being labeled by commander Erwin himself as self-defense and the defense of your comrades, there will be consequences, but we're keeping you in the survey corps, don't think about it too much."

   A portion of the weight on my shoulders seemed to disappear at his words, but for the most part, my stomach still stirred with the memories of the monster that had taken over me last night. I didn't deserve to be here anymore, not after this. I shifted in Levi's bed, attempting to make myself smaller. Levi must have read my face because within the next second he spoke,"You've proved more than once that you're worthy enough for my squad, and for your bravery and strength, you have my unfaltering respect and trust." I looked up in shock, then somehow managed to smile a bit.

"So I had to get swallowed by a Titan, survive three days outside the walls, bring back a group of 33 survivors, and fight off two mysterious hooded figures for the unfaltering respect and trust of the famous Captain Levi?" I smiled shaking my head, "I feel sorry for the next guy." The Squad chuckled at my statement, Levi maintained his trademark facial expression. I made eye contact with Levi, "I meant that in no disrespect Captain, I am greatly honored, and from here on out if you'll allow me to stay on your squad, I won't let you down."

"I know you won't Quinn, and I have no intentions of kicking you out of the squad. Anybody got a problem with that?" Levi eyed the room at the rest of the squad, all of them answering in unison,

"No sir."

"Good, now that that's out of the way, it's just a bunch of paperwork."

"That's it?" I pulled my brows together, "I'm not in trouble? What about court?" Levi's eyes moved back to mine,

" I didn't say that.  Commander Erwin and I personally spoke with the judge, we had enough evidence for him to let it slide this time. As I said before there are consequences, one of those being another ten years in my squad."

"Ten years?!" My eyes widened,

"Is that a problem?" At Levi's words, my heart pounded,

"No sir! I just didn't think you would want to keep me around that long, after all, I have caused quite a bit of trouble-."

"Don't worry about it, it's being taken care of. You've been through too much to let this stop you. Besides I would choose this situation over any that involved you gone for good," Levi took a sip of his tea, "especially considering we just got you back."

"I'm surprised at his effort, he was very persistent." Gunther pulled his brows together as he stared down at the floorboards.

"No kidding, first he took her to court after she survives hell then he tries to-."