Leaving (An Ashton Irwin Fan Fic) *in major editing*

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Calum's POV:

All of the thoughts in my mind right now made no sense at all. It all seemed too incredibly overwhelming. The fact that some one from a record label had been to watch one of my small performances in this little pub and still wanted to sign me it's beyond words. There was one time where I was ill and didn't sound my best at all, what if I was watched then? But then again he does want to watch me again today, he may still change his mind. He could take one second look at me and try to remember what it was that he saw in me in the first place.

The thought of that alone made me feel queasy. Once I've had all of my hopes brought up the maximum level ever, being told that actually I'm not good enough would tear me apart. The thought that this is literally my only chance at my dreams coming true makes me extremely nervous. Everything I ever wanted rests all on how well I perform tonight and I'm not even prepared. I have no clue what I'm going to wear or even sing for that matter. "Do you mind if I come back in like an hour so that I can practice?" I asked the man opposite me who had just managed to make all my dreams come reality.

Steve told me that I could practice a bit in the garage around the back of the pub which is where i usually warm up before I perform. I embraced the man in a huge hug to thank him for all that he's done for me. He believed in me so much that i may actually be able to make it in this crazy messed up world. I was just a little boy from Swindon but now I'm a little boy from Swindon that has a chance at becoming something.

I thanked the man countless amounts of time before I finally left him and made my way back downstairs to the pub to meet Darcy. She was sat at the same table on her phone with an empty mug infront of her. I want to tell her, I really do but I'm not going to. The thought of me actually not getting this offer and having to break it to her would ruin me more than actually not getting the deal. She deserves the break just as much as I do. if i actually get signed by this man at the end of the night then i will tell her. 

Darcy noticed me and motioned for me to come back over and join her. "What did he want?" She got straight to the point. 

I sat down opposite her, like i had done before i went to speak to Steve. "He just asked if i wanted a couple of gigs here." To be fair it wasn't too far from the truth. I am going to be performing here tonight and he did ask me its just the major part of the signing that i missed out. She'll have a massive shit fit when she finds out that i kept it from her and i know that but i'm doing what i think is best. If i don't get it then i don't even have to tell her that i had the chance and see the disappointment in her face as she tells me that i can try again soon. 

I feel really bad for not telling her because we have known every single thing about each other since birth but this is a decision that i have made and i am going to stick with it. 

Darcy placed her phone on to the table in front of her and looked at me with her full attention. "He came to you for gigs?" She sounded surprised. Not only did he come to me for gigs but he came to me with the chance of being signed.

I took my phone out of my back trouser pocket and started scrolling through my photos. To her it just looked like i was playing about on my phone which made me seem like i wasn't bursting with happiness inside. "Yeah." I simply replied. Hopefully she wouldn't ask me anymore questions because i don't know how I'm going to continue avoiding the topic that i don't want to tell her just yet.

"Have you wrote any new songs? I want my 18th birthday performance to be the best one." I said the excuse before she had asked. Darcy writes a few songs every now and then and they are pretty good. She can not play a musical instrument to save her life but she can write really good music. I haven't sang one properly at one of my little gigs but i think that tonight would be the perfect opportunity. If i want to show off and prove that i am worthy of this deal then i need to pull out all of the stops. This has to be the best performance ever. 

She pulled out a book from her bag that was bound together by a strap of leather. The book looked old and worn but i knew that this would be the only book that she would write down her good songs in. She usually wrote them out on a scrappy peice of paper and then would only make it in this book of they were worthy. "Um," She began untying the knot of leather at the front of the book. "I have one that i think would be good for you." The book was finally opened and she flicked past the first few pages trying to get the lyrics that she wanted. 

Darcy has already let me read a few of the ones at the start and by that i mean i sneaked a look. She didnt hit me too hardly so it was fine. When she finally got to the song that she placed the leather on the page and then closed the book again. "I wrote this only recently.." I looked up at her, waiting for her to continue. "You said something to me and i wrote it down. A couple days later and this is what i have." She offered me the book but then quickly took it back. "Don't slate it, its still a work in progress."

I looked up at her with disbelief. "Why would i slate it." I asked more of a statement than an actual question. 

I opened the book to the page that was mostly covered in leather strips. At the top of the page was the name of the song which was outlined by Darcy writing over the letters multiple times. 

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