Leaving (An Ashton Irwin Fan Fic) *in major editing*

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Darcy's POV:

America. 1 word. 1 little word that seemed to ruin everything that was planned. America. 3,870 miles away. So many miles that i will be away from the only person who has been by my side my whole life. It was almost sickening thinking about it. As much as i hate to admit it, i am reliant on my big brother.

'It's for our career.' It would be whats best for my brother and that's all i ever wanted. He is a very talented musician and everyone needs to know about him, and the boys. They truly deserve it.

Ashton's eyes looked directly at me. He knew what was going to be said, you could see it in the way that he didn't carry the cheeky smile that he had recently adorned. "Ash, we need to stop this before it becomes anything." He was sat on the edge of the bed looking up at me as i decided to stand near the door. The words really shouldn't mean as much as they do. His stare fell and he nodded, really slowly. I needed words though.

"Why?" He stood up and met me at the door. "Why does shit like this always happen? When anything starts going right, it just all.. it just all turns to Ash." He snorted.

I grabbed both of his hands and held them tightly in mine. His hazel eyes finally looked up to mine again and i could see that this had generally affected him. Its funny to think that i could have actually meant something to him. I know that whatever we had going on was short-lived but it has managed to affect him in a way that i didn't think was possible. "Everything is going to be great for you Ash. You're going to go to America and you are going to do the thing that you have wanted to do your whole life." I smiled weakly. "You're going to be the best drummer that ever graced this planet."

"You're one of a kind, do you know that Darcy Hood?" The words seemed so weird coming from the boy who had once teased me everyday. The kind of weird that is good though, it's a nice weird. "Infuriating, but one of a kind." He added lightening the mood and succeeding as he made me chuckle. "I used to laugh at Luke for saying similar things to you and now here i am saying them. Call me cheesy, i deserve it." He raised his hand and put it over his eyes in a dramatic manner.

"I kind of liked it." I smiled and he removed his hand from his face. He was smiling too and it was the same smile that i have grown quite fond of over the past couple of weeks. "Can i ask you something though?" He didn't say anything so i proceeded. "Why did you still tell me that you..liked me when you knew that you were moving away? Why was Calum so annoyed? Oh and why did Michael say that Luke would be in 'the shit' if he told me?" I used my index and middle finger to make air quotation marks. I had only planned on asking him the first question but apparently my mind wants answers to a lot of things.

"That was 3 questions all in one and i don't even think i remember them anymore. Ask one at a time and i will do my very best to answer the Darcy Inquisition." He joked. Ash, with his hands still in mine, pulled me back over to sit on the bed where he sat only minutes ago. "Lay down." He ordered whilst moving back on the bed. I did as he told me to so that my head was on his lap and his hands stroked my hair. "Question number 1, go."

"Why did you tell me that you liked me when you knew you were going to America?" It was the question that i wanted to know the answer to the most. It was such appalling timing for him to tell me, especially as he knew that he would be leaving to a different country soon. I dont even know when, all i know is that its before i start University.

His hands momentarily stopped stroking my hair as if he was thinking about the answer himself. "Something in me just clicked i suppose." He shifted his legs, moving the both of us. "I'd had these overwhelming feelings that i had never felt before. I tried pushing them away, that was when i wasnt in my good place." When he was bitter Ash all of the time. The Ashton that hated me for moving to London with the rest of the boys and the Ashton that accused me of sleeping with Harry Styles. "When we found out about America you were at your interview and i promised myself that i would tell you. I didnt think that you would feel the same." He finally finished.

So, they had only found out today as well. I suppose that that is better than them knowing for ages and still not telling me. That would hurt ten times worse. "Well then why was Cal so annoyed? Thats question number 2." I smiled up at him.

"Well.. um. I really wanted to tell you about how i felt so i told Calum to not tell you for a few days to give me some time. I told him before i came to pick you up and i left before he could say anything back to me. I suppose i finally got his reaction when we arrived home together." I sat up and turned to face Ash.

"Calum knows about us? If there even is an us? The ex us? You get the point. He knows?" Ashton just chuckled lightly and pulled me in to the position that i was previously in. "He doesnt know anything. I told him that we should give it a few days so that you can celebrate your University application thingy properly." Thank fuck. If Calum knew that i harboured any feelings at all for Ashton then he would forbid it. Ever since bitter Ash, Calum has been a lot more weary of him. To think that they got on so well when they first met eachother properly in the pub. I really thought that they would get on so well back then. Its funny how things change.

"Okay then, final question. Why did Michael tell Luke not to tell me? Did they know?" I looked straight up at Ash but his focus was not on me. His stare was situated at the door? Without even looking in that direction I knew why. My chest sank and my breathing hitched. Fuck. I hesititantly turned my head to confirm my suspicions.

"Does someone want to tell me why the fuck you two are cuddled up?" Michael.

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Hi guys, sorry about the late update:-( I've started writing my new fan fic called When It All Turns To Ash (WIATTA) and I'm liking the story line a bit more so I've been concentrating on that a bit more than Leaving. Also, I'm not sure if people are really liking where this is going so it would be great if you could just leave a comment or a vote? When I get no feedback it makes me think that no one is liking it and I don't know whether to just put it on hold. Bit of a crap authors note but I would really like any feedback:-)