Leaving (An Ashton Irwin Fan Fic) *in major editing*

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Darcys POV:

"University? Why the fuck are you going to University?" He repeated as if I hadn't heard his the first time. He has no right to just barge in to my room and then demand to know after how he treated me this morning. I moved and untangled myself from Luke whilst I kept eye contact with the sandy haired boy in the doorway.

"It's none of your business what I am doing, it doesn't affect you so don't get involved." I got up from my position on the bed and made my way to the bathroom. I don't know what I was doing, I just didn't want to be in that room whilst he is the way he is.

"Well, it does affect me actually, quite a lot." He blocked me from shutting the door and then stood leaning against it. His hair was a curly mess that was slightly tamed by a maroon beanie and his eyes were stern.

"No, no it doesn't. I go to University then I am out of your way. Surely that would be a good thing for you since you despise me so much?" I tried making my way past him but he shifted so that he was in the way of the door. It was making me uncomfortable being in this small space with him and now I can't even move away.

He murmered something under his breath and then looked at me waiting for me to say something.

"Can you just piss off and leave me the fuck alone." This time I barged past him and made my way past the human wall. "And next time, don't listen in to my conversations. If I want you to know, I will talk to you." I immediately left him and headed straight to Calum's room.

Unexpectedly, Calum was awake and was sitting up in his bed, drinking the water that I put by the side of his bed earlier this morning. Instead of saying anything, I just crawled in to his bed and cuddled in to him. Either he had heard what had just happened or he was used to me coming to him when I am upset but he didn't question my movements and just hugged me in closer.

"Do you want to talk about it?" He quietly asked so that no one else could hear us. The opposit of Ashton.

"He has no right, Calum." Why is he so bitter about everything that the boys or I do? Every move that I have made gets scrutinised by him and I shouldnt have to justify why I want to go to University or why I even wanted to come to London in the first place.

"I know he doesn't, Darce." The fact that he already knows is comforting. It means that I don't have to go over it again because if I did I would be sure not to miss out all the things he said to me this morning. But then again it is slightly annoying that he knows, because that means that our 'talk' must of been so loud that it's woken him up.

"How's your head?"

"Not too bad, I took the paracetamol that someone" He nudged my side. "left me."

I can honestly say that I love my brother more than anyone else on this planet.

Ashton's POV:

"What was all that about?" Luke shoved me.

"Don't start getting all macho with me Lucas. You knew me first, maybe defending me next time and not the little girl." His lovesick behaviour will be the death of me. My gravestone will read:

Ashton Irwin

4th February 2014

Died of cheese overload

"I will stick up for who I think is right and it sure as hell wasn't you. I.. I.. I just dont know what to do about you anymore." He took off his beanie, ruffled up his hair and then put in back on in exactly the same manner and then headed towards the door.

"You dont have to do anything."

"You see that's where you're wrong. Ever since Swindon, I feel as if you have had some massive chip on your shoulder. You were left behind, so what? 2 days we were here without you, Ashton. You're here now and you're going to be drumming for a living, can you stop just acting like a complete dick and just fucking be happy about it."

"Of course you wouldn't know what it's like to be left behind all of your life would you Luke? You have a mum and you have a dad who worship the ground that you walk on. My dad was such a prick that he didnt even bother to get to know me. He left on my 6th birthday. My mum is on the opposit side of the world and you want me to be happy? I finally have some security in my life and they just up sticks and left me without even sparing me a thought. Maybe you should stop being such a self conceded prick and maybe think about what's gone on my life."

By this time, my anger had rose substantially and my fists were clenched at my sides. I don't talk about Dave. He lost the title of dad the day that he decided he would walk out on his wife and son. I mean what kind of asshole does that? He gets some attention by some whore and just grabs all of his things and leaves.

"I didn't know that happened." He walked over to me with some shitty sympathetic look on his face.

"Just.. Don't." I put my hand out to stop him from coming any closer. "I am used to people leaving me, I just didn't see it coming from you lot."

"Darcy didn't do anything wrong though Ash. You can't just take all of your anger out on her all of the time. She is going away for University and there is nothing you can do to stop that. We're not leaving you, we're in this together. What happened in Swindon is in the past now."

"I'm not that bad to Darcy." I've only been saying it how it looks. If it looks like she just rolled out of bed after having sex with Harry then I'm going to tell her that. I'm clearly not the only one who thought it, twitter is still going mental.

"You are Ash. If you don't like her then just leave her alone." I'm not going to be able to leave her alone though am I. Her room is only a few centimetres away from mine for Christs sake. And she beautiful.

The fuck? "What did you just say?"

"I didnt say anything."

"You definatley just called Darcy beautiful." He playfully shoved my arm. Fuck. If I said that out loud then I am just fucking done for.

"I said nothing and if you tell anyone differently then you.. Well I'm don't know what I will do to you but I tell you what, it wont be fucking pleasant to put it in a nice way."

"Tell anyone what?"

"Thats more like it Lucas. She not beautiful anyway, she's alright I guess."

"Whatever you say Ashton." He remarked laughing as he made his way out of Darcy's room.

What the hell are we even doing in here still anyway? Once back in my room I plugged in my earphones and ignored the rest of the world and all it's problems. Right now, listening to The 1975 whilst laying on my bed is the first time I think ive properly smiled since being in London.