Leaving (An Ashton Irwin Fan Fic) *in major editing*

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Darcys P.O.V

I could see Cal singing his heart out on the stage. You could tell by the way that he sounds that singing means everything to him. I've never seen him preform a gig before and it is even better than I expected it to be. He seems so lost in the music, like he has some emotional connection to it. I'm so proud of Calum. Seeing him up there following out his dreams makes me the happiest sister in the world.

I don't have a talent like Calum does. I can't play an instrument for my life and my singing sounds as if I'm dying. Cal definatley got the talent genes. I suppose if I had anything in the form of a talent it would be my song writing. I wish I was a musically talented person, it seems like such a beautiful thing to be able to do. It would be so cool to just be able to pick up any instrument and play amazingly.
I returned my attention back to Calum who had just began singing 'I miss you'. He's told me loads of times that this song reminds him of mum, dad and our upbringing. I could hear the raw emotion in his voice as he sang the lyrics that mean so much to him.

Where are you and I'm so sorry
I can not sleep I can not dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time
And as I stared I counted
The webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like incision to call you
And hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight?

The words that meant the most to Calum. He wanted our parents to come back and stop the pain of not having them around. I knew that. But that didn't make it possible, they were gone for good. There is no way that they would be able to return back to this twisted place, it is impossible. He said to me once that it portrays the orphanage and social workers as spiders that had us trapped and were eventually forcing us to be something that we weren't. That's why he wanted mum and dad to come back, to stop it all.

"Is anyone sitting here?" asked a tall blonde boy motioning towards the seat next to me. I simply told him that no one was and he sat down next to me. He was quite good looking. He had messy blonde hair that was styled in a quiff and light blue eyes. He was wearing a black Ramones T-shirt and black skinny jeans.

"I'm Luke by the way." he said sticking out his hand for my to shake. So this must be the Luke that I have heard so much about from Calum. He is exactly as he described him and I don't know how I didn't manage to put two and two together as soon as i looked at him.

"I'm Darcy." I said shaking his hand. He sat down on the chair next to me and then turned so that we could carry on our conversation.

"Calum's sister?" He questioned and I nodded as a response.

"We did indeed share a womb for nine months." After I replied, I noticed a sudden change in Calum's set and turned to watch him as he began placing in one of his earphones and strumming his guitar in the way that he has been practising all day.

Then he started singing my lyrics. My heart rate picked up and I was watching the faces of everyone in the audience to see their reaction.

"Just a kid it's all the same,
Growing up it doesn't change,
Who are they to try and put us down?" Well those lyrics were a big fuck you to the orphanage.

Luke had also turned to face Calum, clearly shocked by the new song.

"Just a girl turned 18,
She ran away to chase her dreams,
They said she wouldn't make it far." These lyrics pretty much explain themselves. When I wrote them I wanted to leave the orphanage and try to make it as a songwriter but I've decided against it. People like Sally looked down their noses at my choice and now I don't want to do it. Of course it's the ultimate dream but like Calum's dream I know that it is very far fetched and unlikely. I'll probably just get a job as a shop assistant and spend all my days living life to the max, tagging and pricing clothes. I don't even like clothes.

Two minutes and some intense listening later, Calum finished singing my song. Throughout the entire song he didn't look at me, he kept on scanning the crowd. Like me, he was probably trying to see everyone else's reactions. This is the first 'original' song that he's ever sang and it must be different for him to not have everyone singing along with him.

Social Casualty was the last song that Calum had in his set and everyone began clapping. He had a huge grin on his face and I could see he was genuinely happy. This is all that he wants to do and it is quite clear to see. Calum jumped off of the stage and joined Luke and I, his guitar strapped to his back.

"Did up you hear how many people just clapped me, that was mental?" He laughed obviously high off of the adrenalin. I gave him a huge hug and then he turned to the blonde next to me. "Luke, it's great to see you mate." he said patting his back.

"You too, that show was amazing by the way. I haven't heard of that last song though, who's it by?" Luke asked.

"Darcy wrote it." He replied, looking over at me with a cheeky smile. "She said that I could sing it tonight for the audience." He emphasised on audience. I looked at my brother, unaware of what was going on.

Luke stood from his chair and scratched the back of his neck. He kept on looking over to the bar when the only person who was there was Ashton. "Uhh yeah." He stuttered. "Dad wants to speak to you?" I think that he was clearly confused by my brothers randomness as I was.

Calum told me that he would be back down in about fifteen minutes and to just wait for him, he then left with Luke. What was he hiding from me? I thought that we told each other everything...

Ashton was stood at the bar still, checking his phone again. When he noticed that I was looking, he smirked. Continuing my game of not allowing him to be such a douche, I went over to him.

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