Leaving (An Ashton Irwin Fan Fic) *in major editing*

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Darcy's POV:

Despite how i felt about it last time i did it again. You might ask me why i did it. You might ask why i didn't learn but in all honesty i would do it again. There is something so unexplainable about the feeling of our lips connecting that i generally can not put it into words. Maybe it's the fact that its so wrong that i find it so right. Boys like Ashton have this general appeal to them even though they are complete dicks. Maybe that's the reason. If you're looking for a genuine explaination of why its happened twice now then i can't give it to you.

My interview had gone well and i think it was safe to say that they liked me. It was more of a formal chat about my education rather than an interview. As i had already been offered the place they were just checking to see if i had put down the correct courses. Everything went fine and i even had to have my picture taken for their data base. As it wasn't a proper interview I didn't end up stuttering or getting majorly nervous so the extent that i'm silenced. Everyone there seemed so friendly and the campus looked amazing. I had someone to help me look around and show me where everything is and everything looks even better than i was expecting. The dorms are shared so i'm also going to be able to meet other people who have the same interests in me which is amazing.

Ashton had just picked me up as he had promised to when he dropped me off. He was actually early and i didnt have to wait for him to get here.

I looked over at Ashton in the drivers seat of the rental car that they had been given. He looks amazing. He has his hair pushed back behind a murky green bandana and he is wearing a dark grey tank top which shows off his muscles. Being a drummer has helped him incredibly.

"Are you going to continue checking me out?" He smirked in my direction whilst changing the gear stick.

"I could of asked you the very same thing when we left, Irwin." He laughed as if he had knew what my comeback was going to be.

"Have you even looked at yourself though? You're fucking lucky i was only staring."

"That, and you kissed me." I smirked back at him. "That is going to have to stop happening by the way." I choked on my own words. Not only was I saying them now because of my previous reason, I also wanted to see what his reaction would be. I wanted to see if he was feeling similar to me about the whole situation. It's the last thing that i want to happen but i know somewhere deep down inside that its going to be for the best. Nothing good is going to come out of it in the long run.

If their music career kicks off bit time then I can only imagine how difficult it would be to even see him let alone continue anything that we could have going on. A bit of me believes that something could happen between Ashton and I but I know that this undoubtably means less to him than it does to me. That's why it's best to leave it. I don't want to turn into one of those people who just whore around with boys, I want something that means something. I don't want to be just another girl to a man I want to be the only. It sounds so cliche but it's my morals.

Ashton's POV:

"Why?" If there is someone else i will go fucking mental. Did she not understand what I've been trying to tell her all these weeks? How can't she see that I'm mad for her? I thought that we were finally getting to a point where she actually felt the same, clearly not. It was ridiculous to even think that a girl like Darcy would see anything special in me. To see that there is anything worth fighting for.

"I just don't think that anything good will come out of it." She confessed whilst looking out of the window to avoid my gaze. I wanted her to look at me. I wanted her to look me dead in the eyes as she crushes everything that i thought we could have had. I moved to the slower lane of the road and then parked the car on the side of the road as somehow my concentration had shifted from driving.