The Outsiders Girls

No! Don't Do It!

Later that night, around 9:30 pm

Kaylee's POV

I had enough of suffering. Kenzie and Beca leaving me, I mean all of us. Getting jumped or hurt badly, I hate it and want it to stop. I just want it to stop, my arm is broken, the guys had to hold me down for 20 minutes. I just want to... leave. Leave where no one gets hurt like this, no one in the world could die. Why does this happen to people, I'd say good people. But I am not one of those people at all. I am bad girl Kaylee Montgomery, bad girl with no heart. That's what others think, the guys think I have one. If I do, it's bigger then Dallas's heart but smaller then Soda, Pony, Johnny, Darry, Two-bit and I guess Steve's hearts too.

I woke up not long ago, its late at night. The girls woke up before I even got here and they were chilling at our place thinking I was here the whole time. Nope, I was in a hospital all morning. I sat up rubbing my head and messing up my hair. The guys are all awake, they're all playing poker except for Johnny and Pony. But the other 5 are and they're loud as hell. I got up mad. Mad at the world. I was mad earlier too, but now I show it even more. I left their house and walked outside. I was debating whether to go to my place or to an alley way. I could only get hurt even more or be lazy in my room.

I chose the alley way. I wasn't far as it is. Our alley way is down the road from my house and two blocks from the Curtis house. Not far, am I right? I wanted to skip, but then I'd seem too 'girly'. I think only popular girls do that, bad girls walk with sass. Like I do all the time and no one can stop me!

I turned into the alley and walked around. I kicked things around as I let out my anger once again. I had trouble hitting things with my one arm, it still has that stupid cast. I will have it for like 2 months, not unless I leave tonight. I mean leave, disappear forever in the world. Won't  affect anyone, maybe like 12 people. But still, I am not famous like a soc, not infamous like Dallas or Sidney. Just a kid that not many people know about.

"I HATE IT HERE!" I yelled out. I was in the alley still, in the dark of the night. I let out my anger as good as I could. By now I heard no one,nothing. No animals or birds making sounds, no people talking around. Just me and my anger as I let it out. I started to cry and knew I couldn't move on like this.

I saw a car coming down the road, well the head lights. I ran out to the road and stood there as a car came flying by. I looked down the road, just peeking my head out the alley. I saw another car coming. I have enough time to get myself out on the road, stand there and wait for them to hit me and end my life. Hopefully, if not. I don't know what will happen to me. It started to rain and I could hear thunder come along with it.

I ran out into the middle of the road. Arms by my side, feet about a foot apart. I mean, who stands straight with their feet together and still? Not me, I will never stand like that or like a princess. My tears flowed down my face and I felt warmth hit me. I realised it was the car's headlights shinning on my body as I stood front and center of the road for them to hit me. I closed my eyes and waited.

I waited and then heard a scream. Tears streamed down my face and the rain coming down harder then ever. Lightning lighting up the sky and around me. I saw the flashes in my eyes and other flashes too. I saw me at the skate park with Beca, Alex and Beth. Saw so many flashbacks and good times I had. Is this a sign telling me to not leave and go through with my plan? I shrugged my shoulders and shook my head. Letting them all go away. I kept my eyes closed and felt the wind get knocked out of me, someone cry my name too. Did the car hit me or someone ruin my plan? I landed on the grass, tears rolling down my face still, the rain pouring down on me.

I have my eyes closed as I could feel something or someone shaking me violently and screaming my name. Saying I am crazy for doing this, leaving all theses things behind. Once I heard the words "I love you Kaylee and you scared me to death!". I knew that was Soda, he stopped me? Why? Doesn't matter no more and never will. I laid on the grass and opened my eyes, the rain hitting my bare skin. I only wore short shorts and a t-shirt. I was muddy, wet and not even scared. Just crying, how I hate it her, hate getting hurt, hate having them both gone forever, hate being... me. Always alone, sassy one, stealing or robbing, making your day horrible or whatever it is. I just want to be happy, no more fighting, getting jumped and all that stuff. But I know I will still fight and be me. I won't change and neither will the girls. Maybe my thoughts will a little.