so far away | yoonkook

noon : 24

"I don't remember you giving me one of your secrets. I thought we agreed to trade?" yoongi sits with jungkook on the couch after the younger lad finally stirs. it's a bit later than usual. he woke up when the sun was already bursting with late morning heat.

"right. I almost forgot." jungkook recalls with a rather quiet voice, something that sounds almost like jimin's but with a tad more naivety and innocence.

"or were you avoiding it?"

jungkook nuzzles into yoongi's neck, his lashes graze yoongi's skin as he closes his eyes. "I wasn't. what's there to hide anyway?"

"I don't know." yoongi replies, as airy and quiet as the way jungkook was talking.

he feels arms wrapping around his waist when he turns the other way, resting his cheek against jungkook's hair.

it's better if things remained like this. still. serene.

the hour hand moves slow. the silent ticking echoes through the room and adds to the feeling of a less anticipated future.

somehow, the most uneventful days were the ones that gave yoongi's heart a reason to pound even faster. when he has jungkook under his arm, could feel his warmth and hear him breathing steadily, yoongi could only wish to be given more days like this.

jungkook's chests rises and falls to the same pace as yoongi's. it's these small moments that yoongi wished the seconds wouldn't race, wished things would drag on so they, too, could prolong their stay in this time.

he looked forward to the way jungkook softens to his touch, when he sets his hand on his shoulder and pulls him closer. he liked the fact that jungkook couldn't handle feeling just a bit nervous when he runs a thumb across his cheek, his pulse increasing by the minute.

now, his heart stirs with an added fondness.

jungkook exhales against yoongi's neck and his breath is cool.

"about my secret."

"yeah?" yoongi drops his hand down to fold his fingers around jungkook's forearm, his thumb caressing the skin there. "I thought you'd never talk."

jungkook opens his eyes, stares at nothing in particular. "the night I found you and namjoon hyung in gangnam..."

yoongi's heart misses a beat.

"I was sad that day. it's rare that I have days that aren't the same as that. and seeing you cry made me remember just how horrible the world really is. you're a strong guy, I know you are. but then, breaking points are far from our control. you had yours and I have mine. so when you slept beside me on the floor that night, even if you kind of scared me-"

"I'm sorry."

"it's alright..." jungkook mutters under his breath. "I wasn't expecting for you to share anything. but you did and that made me really happy." jungkook shifts and inclines, levelling his face with his hyung's.

"it's funny how lost things find their way around this world and meet other lost things along the way. despite all the bad, you're still here. you remind me of a song I used to sing in my head to calm myself down."

yoongi's pursing his lips when jungkook sets his cheek against his, bringing his arms around his hyung's neck.

"all my unpleasant memories, I no longer recall. because the hand that holds me is as warm as spring." he sings as soft as he possibly could near yoongi's ear.

"you make so happy, hyung. I see so much of myself in you and yet I know you're so much greater than I'll ever be. I've been meaning to tell you that for a while now."

"not true." yoongi says, hugging jungkook around his middle. "you're really great, jungkook-ah."

"that's so weird to hear. a few days back, I thought you'd be calling me an asshole forever." jungkook relaxes into yoongi's embrace, fitting himself between the elder's thighs.

"I call everyone 'asshole'." yoongi rests his chin onto jungkook's shoulder and leans his head against the younger's. "yet here you are, the only exception."

"does that make me a special kind of asshole?"

"no. now, you're just-really special, especially to me."

yoongi feels jungkook's heartbeat competing with his. it almost shakes him, so many mini-quakes begging to merge into one big tremor.

"and so are you, hyung." jungkook holds onto him tighter. "especially to me." yoongi can practically hear the smile on jungkook's lips.

content, yoongi sighs. "you're beautiful, jungkook-ah, and I hope you realize that you carry so much of the lost beauty in the world inside you. please don't do anything harmful to yourself."

"I won't." jungkook says. he's heavy against yoongi's chest but yoongi doesn't mind, not one bit.

"can you promise me?"

jungkook tries to keep his breathing levelled amid the closeness they were sharing. yoongi never would've imagined he'd get this type of reaction from jungkook ever.

but then again, yoongi never would've imagined feeling so much bliss even if it were only for a short amount of time in his life. because the smell of jungkook's hair, and his soft voice, and his staggered breathing are what makes these days oh, so worthwhile.

"I do, for as long as you promise you'll stay."

jungkook's heartbeat against yoongi's chest is what makes life oh, so worthwhile.

"I'll stay."

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+a/n:

thank you so much for the 1K reads on this! all of the support this fic is getting is highly appreciated as well as everyone who'd ever took their time reading this. im really so grateful and I hope i make it good for you guys until the end. c:

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