I woke before everyone in my house when getting ready for school. Even my mum, and today was no exception. Except today I wasn't exactly happy, i'm never happy but today was bad. There had been a new boy at the school, Chandler. At first he'd seemed nice and quiet, keeping to himself and not bothering with a lot of people. But then as he began to get comfortable, he made friends with a group of boys and slowly his true self was uncovered. He was big-headed, obnoxious and rude. Downright rude. He was horrible to anyone who crossed his path, and I was no exception. About a month had gone by and everyday he'd torture me. I trudged the route to school, both my headphones stuck deep in my ears. It was peaceful without many people around, that was until the one person I didn't want around turned up. He yanked my hair, stopping me in my tracks.
"What's wrong little girl?" He cooed like I was 5. I ignored him but he grabbed my arm and took out my headphones.
"Let go." I hissed trying not to make a scene.
He just pouted and held onto me tighter. "Alone again?" He put on an even babier voice.
"What is it to you?" I was beginning to get sick of the same old. Just as he was about to reply there was a chorus of yells before one calling his name.
"Chandler!" He let go of me for a split second and I started off again. My headphones wen back in and I picked up the pace a little to create as big of a gap between me and him. It seemed to of worked because by the time I made it to my first lesson he wasn't there. I was one of the earlier ones, so I took a seat at the back in the corner.
One by one more people began to file in, I sighed in relief. Maybe Chandler wasn't coming and had just skipped school.
The room was pretty much full, except for the one empty seat directly in front of me. I knew exactly where this was going, almost as if on cue he arrived in the doorway and scanned the room. He smirked when he saw the only empty seat and who was behind it. I dipped my head trying to go unnoticed but he knew exactly who was there. I took out my notebook and began writing down the lesson's notes. The teacher had explained that we would be doing projects for the next couple of weeks and would have free time to do them in class.
This meant that most of the class would just talk and chill for most of the lesson, I didn't have any of my friends in this class and dreaded turning up alone to every one that was like this where you could chill. I began writing things down before a hand grabbed my book.
"I'm bored." Whined chandler. I nodded and patiently waited for him to hand me the book back. "why do you never talk to me y/n?" I shrugged not even trying to go along with it. He sighed ad threw the book onto my desk. For once he wasn't teasing me or throwing paper, this was nice compared to his daily standard.
When the bell went it was finally time for lunch. I gathered my things and waited to be dismissed. The rest of the class was pretty noisy so as usual my teacher let me go first. As I passed Chandler and his friends he stuck out his foot. I felt myself fall to the ground, hitting my shin on a table leg. There were a couple gasps but it soon died down to laughter. I didn't dare look back. I held onto my bag and ran out, going to the only place I knew to be alone. The roof.
I ran up the empty stairs trying not to fall again in my mad rush. Tears had begun to flood my face as i'd ran away but the embarrassment had struck me instantly. I could still here the laughs echoing in my head. I sat on the one table that occupied the rooftop. No one else knew of this and I was glad of it. I pulled up my knees and sobbed heavily into them. I started to hear the hum to students going to lunch on the pavement below, but then the one voice I never wanted to hear again.
"Y/N?!" He burst through the door. So someone did know I was here. Great!
Chandler rushed up to me. I wiped away a couple tears.
"Come to kick me?" I asked a sudden burst of confidence bubbling up inside me. "HUH! Come to tease me. Come to tell me that i'm worthless." His face became serious. He was speechless. "Well let me tell YOU something Chandler Riggs, let me do the talking for once! I know i'm worthless okay." His eyes popped out of his head.
"Because everyday I wake up and tell myself that, then you tell me, then i feel worse. I don't need you to remind me because me... I remind myself more than often enough." I buried my head back into my knees and crumbled.
"Y/n." He whispered. I shook my head.
"Go chandler. please." There was silence and I wasn't sure that he had gone so I didn't dare lift my head to see. Until I felt him sit next to me.
"I'm sorry you feel worthless." i laughed sarcastically. "Really I do. Why do you think I bug you everyday. Why do you think I know that you only come here to get away from your friends and that even they don't know where you hide when you're upset. I pay attention to you y/n, I always have. All I ever wanted was you to pay attention to me."
My jaw dropped.
"What?"
"I did everything so that you'd notice me, I just wanted you to see me as this big guy."
"So you tripped me up?"
"I wanted to try and catch you, make it look cool or something. I thought maybe if I helped you for once then you'd like me. But as per usual it went bad and here we are."
"You don't hate me." I was in pure shock.
"No, y/n and i'm sorry for everything i've ever done to you. Because I love you and I hate seeing you hurt like this. I've wanted to come and comfort you up here for so long. But I never had the courage."
I chuckled a little. "What?" He asked a bit ashamed of his confession.
"You said you love me." I teased.
"I do honestly and I would kill for your forgiveness."
"Chandler?" He looked straight into my eyes, and for the first time I saw hope starring right back at me.
"y/n, I really love you." He croaked, his voice shaky like he was going to cry.
"I love you too."
I'd never seen that boy smile more than then. His eyes were soft and he grabbed me into a hug. As I pulled away I had a sudden urge and took the risk.
I held his face and hooked onto his lips. He instantly kissed back, not even resisting slightly. He held me close to him still and moved smoothly. Chandler grabbed my arms and slung them around his neck, enjoying every moment of this.
When we had ran out of air, he stayed holding onto me. I leant my head into his shoulder. He grabbed me onto his lap and secured me tightly in his arms. He whispered into my hair comfortingly.
"I promise I"ll never let you go. No exceptions."
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A/N: Where do I start. I actually have no idea when I started this. (If anyone knows please hmu!) But i'm already at 300 reads!!!! Like what the hell, where did the time go? I'm so thankful and grateful for each and everyone of you. Even though i've been crappy at updating and haven't had any requests I still feel like i'm getting something out of this. You have all kept me going on with my need to write and it's inspired me to go onto other things. So 300 reads thank you so so so so so so so so much!!!!!! Again I love you all. You're all beautiful and incredible people who deserve the absolute best in life thank you!
- L x
