I vaguely hear voices around me, it sounds like Josh; but I'm not sure. I am sure that I hear the ambulance pull up. I feel them lift me up and take me up in a stretcher; it feels like I'm not I my body anymore. I can’t tell if I'm dead or alive. I feel them stick needles and put an oxygen mask on me, but I can’t tell if I'm moving. I don’t feel anything else happen. I can just tell that I switched rooms. I hear my mother and father come in, along with Josh. But they sound so far away; it’s like I'm in a haze. I hear someone leave; I guess I'm stuck here at the hospital for now. When I think about it, I'm probably in a coma or something, or headed into one. I feel myself getting sleeper and sleeper; I let the sleep overtake me.
I wake up and I'm in my bedroom. I can’t remember how I got here. I shrug, I guess I fell asleep. Since I can’t remember anything, I look at my calendar; I realize that it is Saturday, the day of Emily’s funeral. I get up and put my clothes that I laid out last night. I head downstairs to my waiting family and we all pile in my parent’s car. We are all quiet, nervous for what we are about to face. We pull up at the cemetery and get out; it is packed with a bunch of kids from school. I look around to see if I can find Si’las. I see him and Scottlyn standing to the right of us. He sees me, and then waves me over. I excuse myself and go over to him. “How are you doing?”He asks me.
“I'm doing as best as I can. It feels like a pit is missing from somewhere inside of me.”I reply. He wraps his arms around my shoulders, and I lay down on his. “It's going to be okay, I'm here for you.” I nod, and the funeral begins. “We are gathered today for the funeral of young Skylar Clarke.”Immediately I realize what he just said. I look and see that everyone is looking at me. I turn to leave, but Josh and Si’las pulls me towards the whole where Emily was suppose to be buried. “No! Don’t do this!”I yell, but they all ignore me.
When we are at the whole, Josh pushes me in the hole. It's too deep for me to get out, so I can’t climb. “Please get me out.”I beg. I look up and I see something I don’t want to see. I see Si’las with a shovel, throwing the dirt on me. I scream, but he just keeps shoveling dirt on me. He doesn’t even hear me. I see him hand the shovel to Josh, so that Josh can finish up.
Right before Josh finishes up, and I can’t see anything else, I see Karly in Si’las’s arms. I want to scream again, but I know the dirt will fill my mouth up. I look up again and see them kissing. I guess this is a big victory for them; they can be together without me anywhere around.
Josh finally covers up the rest of the whole, I don’t want to keep seeing those two kissing. I look around and I'm surrounded by dirt. Every time I breathe some gets into my nose. I can feel my breathing slowing and slowing. I'm barely breathing now, but the thing that keeps playing over and over again is not death; but how happy Si’las and Karly seemed. The image keeps plying over and over again in my mind.
I finally wake up; it was all just a dream. But it felt so real. I look around and I see that I'm in the hospital. I look and I see Josh and Si’las sleeping on each in the chairs that are in the corner. I laugh to myself, “Hey you two.”I say, in a voice barely below a peep. Si’las wakes up almost instantly, and when he sees me he wakes Josh up. “You’re awake.”Josh says.
“How long have I been asleep?”
“Three days. You fell on Saturday and its Monday now.”Josh replies
“School still canceled?”The both nod, and I realize that Si’las is out. “How did you get out of jail Si’las?”
