Sparks

Chapter 7

CHAPTER 7

As I re-enter the train, I make for my room.

"Katniss!" Peeta yells behind me. I just ignore him and walk into the bathroom. I lock the door behind me before Peeta makes it to the door. "Katniss. Please open the door." He knocks. "Katniss, come on. Let me in." When I finally unlock the door, I fall slowly to the ground. I sit with my head in my knees, trying to block out the angry screams and cries shout out to me. Peeta opens the door and scoops me up in his arms like a baby and carries me to the bed while he cradles me in his lap.

"I can't do this Peeta. I can't." I say into his shirt.

"I know, Katniss. I know." He says.

I can't stand to look at those people. The crowds of people staring at me. I thought they would be smiling. I thought they would all be grateful for what I've done for them. I never expected them all to try to jump the stage and kill me. I don't know what made them so angry.

By trying to distract myself from anymore drastic thinking, I grab hold of Peeta's collar and pull his face down to me, but he pulls away. "Katniss, no."

I ignore him and pull his face closer, but he pulls away more. "Katniss, we can't." He sighs.

"Peeta, I have to distract my mind." I say trying to get closer.

He jumps off the bed and paces the floor. "It isn't right Katniss. We are completely unaware of what has gone on in the past two years! We were busy in our own little world, not caring about anything! It's wrong! We need to take action. We need to be the ones who stand up for the districts again. We need to be the leaders." Then he stops in his tracks and looks at me. "I'm sorry." He sits back on the bed and kisses me softly. "I do want to be with you, Katniss. Just not now." He apologizes. I nod in agreement.

Later on that night we order food to our room and just lie in bed, wrapped in each other's arms. Sometime around midnight, we are still awake. I sit up with Peetas arms wrapped around me. I watch as our fingers intertwine with one another. I can feel his stare but I don't look up, concentrated on our fingers.

"Katniss?" Peeta finally says.

"Yes?"

"What are you thinking about?"

"About what you said earlier. About how we just let the world get so out if hand, without caring. Without even bothering to make a notice or appearance until now. I feel selfish."

"No. Katniss, your not selfish.Thats not what I was trying to say. I was just overwhelmed with everything. No one expected us to come out for a long time. We deserved to hide from the world. And if we had found out sooner, it could have ruined our engagement. And we don't want that. Do we?" He asks kissing the top of my head.

"No. We don't." I say in agreement.