Finding Peace (In NaLu)

Chapter 30

Lucy's POV

I woke up and Sting was sleeping next to me. He was snoring and facing the opposite direction. Something about the moment just felt so wrong.

I went downstairs and to my surprise Juvia, Erza, and Lisanna were sitting writing in a notebook.

" okay, were going to go pick up Levy on our way there and go show her the dresses." Erza wrote and spoke.

" is that it?" Lisanna stood up.

" I think that should be it for now. Otherwise we can meet at the dinner tonight. Most of the guests will be there. Make sure to dress formal." Juvia stood up.

Erza got out the door and waited for the other girls. I sat on the stairs. Did I think this through?

Well now its probably too late because they all are dedicated to it.

What have I done?

Natsu's words just rang in my head. What did he mean by " not when you are my problem."

Did he really like me or...

I slapped my hands over my face in frustration.

I quietly walked back into the room and Sting was writing some things. Who writes when they wake up?

" can I borrow your phone?" I uncontrollably uttered.

" sure." He smiled.

When he handed me it I didn't know what to do. Why did I even ask for it?

Then I saw Natsu's number and I pressed it.

I looked up at Sting. Instead of hanging up, I just left the room as I held the phone to my ear.

It rang and rang. Then he picked up.
" Hello?" I felt speechless.

"Yes?" He said again.

" hi Natsu... I."

" haha this is a voicemail, silly." He giggled.

I laughed at myself for being so dumb and hung up. Classic.

Now I was there smiling like an idiot. I guess hearing his voice just made me relaxed.

Then I saw a name that I couldn't ignore. 'Layla Heartfilia

I contemplated whether or not to call her. I haven't heard from her or dad in about two years. Was I ready to hear it again?

I traced the phone case out of frustration and eventually pressed it. I was more than prepared.

It rang for a couple of seconds and closed my eyes and pressed the call button.

I heard a woman clear her voice.
" hey Sting." She said, with kind of a sad voice.

" u-um mom, its actually m-me. " I stuttered.

There was a long silence and I heard her take a deep breath. " oh, hey honey. What's going on?"

" mom, I was just calling to see if you'll be at the wedding." I faked a smile, knowing she wouldn't see it.

" um. Honey what are you talking about?" She kind if giggled softly.

I felt tears rush into my eyes. Did I subconsciously tell a joke? What's so funny?

" you know, the wedding. Sting and me. Me and sting. Remember the letter you sent."

" oh. I thought that already happened. I don't know. We sent it like a year and a half ago. And even then, it was just a strong suggestion. We didn't think you'd take it this far."

At that moment I felt relieved. Then I started to get angry as I processed what the hell she just told me.

I went through all of that? For a strong suggestion?

I had a strong urge to throw the phone.

" Hello? Are you still there?"

" um. Yes. That's all I had to say." I nearly hung up the phone when I heard her raise her voice.

"Hold on. I'll come if it means that much to you." She took another deep breath.

"Isn't dad going to come too?" I had so many questions. I didn't want her invitation acceptance to be a pity.

" um. You see? I thought sting talked to you about what happened." She sniffled a bit.

" What happened?" I felt the need to ask as I heard that drop in my voice. My heart started to hurt.

" Nothing serious. We got separated and he got remarried." She cleared her throat.

I could tell she was getting nervous. She even started breathing faster. She was lying to me.

" mom if dad doesn't want to come, he doesn't have to co-

"Honey, your father's dead." She interrupted me.

I started to laugh. "What's so funny?" I heard her say.

" the remarried one was more believable." I laughed again.

She was silent. Then I felt my heart hurt again. Could she be telling the truth?

" He had lung cancer, Lucy. By the time we found out it was too late. We even moved here to find him the best help. He didn't make it through."

I convinced myself that it was a lie, but I felt the tears stream down my face. I didn't know what to say.

" As much as we wanted to tell you and Happy, we were scared. We convinced ourselves we could fix it. And now I can't move back. I can't leave your father."

I felt the tears control me. I couldn't take anymore of her voice.

I hung up. Regretting it soon after. How could she expect me to understand. If its this bad for me, how would Happy feel?

She called again and I turned the phone off.

I left it on the floor as I ran down the stairs.

I saw Juvia with a box of tissues and that's when I felt the emotions kicking in.

I needed to go on a walk. I wasn't even that sad, I just felt emptiness in my heart. I needed fresh air.