My Best Friend

Chapter 18

FAITH POV: I am happy for Tim that he got a record deal, but for me, this was my dream since I was a little girl. I feel all sorts of emotions, happy and sad. Tim can tell something was wrong. When we got home I sat down on the couch, he sat down next to me "Okay now tell me what's wrong?" "Tim..I.." I started to feel tears coming down my cheeks. "sorry, its just, I wanted this for so long since I was a little girl, I wanted to move here to persue that dream" "Are you upset with me?" "no, I'm happy for you I really am but when is it gonna happen for me?" "baby, I'm sorry" "no don't be sorry, it's not your fault. I haven't been out there and I need to start" "so what are you going to do?" "Well after my day job, I'm going to look into playing some places downtown" "I can help you if you want?" "Thanks but I think this is something I need to do on my own" "I understand that" "Well I'm tired, I'm going to go to bed" "okay" He just sat there, like he didn't know what to do. I feel bad. I don't want him to think I'm not happy for him when I am. "Tim, I'm sorry I shouldn't of said anything" "No, its fine, I always always you to be honest with me and tell me anything. I don't want you to hide your feelings or anything from me" I smiled "come on lets go to bed" "Okay" We went to our bedroom, after showering and changing, I climbed in bed. Tim just held me in his arms. "Thank you" "for what?" "For just being you, and dealing with an emotional pregnant fiancé"He laughed "it's all good baby" I smiled and soon fell asleep. I woke up and looked at the time, it was almost time to get up for work. So I quietly got up and got dressed. Tim was still asleep when I had to leave, I didn't want to wake him. I arrived at work and nobody was really there. I put on a little music and started to sing low. Than I was startled when someone walked in. "Oh I'm sorry, I didn't know anyone was here" "No its fine, but can I tell you something?" "Sure" "You have an amazing voice" I smiled "Thanks" "So is that why your working here? To become a country music singer?" "No I like my job and what I do" "Oh okay" "Sir, please don't tell anyone about this, I don't want to lose my job" "I won't I promise" He said and left  I really hope he doesn't say anything, if he does, I could be fired and I can't afford that. After work I went downtown to a few places in hopes of being able to perform.  I was able to get one spot at this little sports bar. I went home to get changed. This could be the start of break for me.