The Story Of Another Us - L.H

CH.28

Jillienne's POV

"Just why! Oh my god, I am giving you a crown for being the biggest idiot ever!"
Aika, my bestfriend, have been yelling at me for half an hour after I told her everything that had happened.

"I told you I had things to think about and figure out on my own. He told me he'll wait till I'm ready" I told her and she rolled her eyes.

"You're just scared, Jill." She let out a heavy sigh. "I know you have trust issues but you've known each other for a very long time. Don't tell me you still don't trust him?"

I pursed my lips.
Why can't I just say yes and be with him? What am I so afraid of?

"I trust him. I really do." I hugged my knees close to me. "but I've never been in love before. I don't even know how it feels to be in love."

"Just try it, let him in. That boy's in love with you. He already told you he loves you."

"I still can't figure out why. Why me? Why would he waste his time on someone like me?" I let out a low chuckle.

"Don't be like that. He sees what I see when I look at you, a beautiful girl with a beautiful heart. You're an amazing girl, Jill." She smiled and I smiled back at her.

"Thank you, Aika. Maybe I'm just scared of dating someone who's almost impossible to be with, he travels around and I don't think a long distance relationship fits me." I sighed.

"I wouldn'nt want to be in one either and you need someone who will stay by your side." She sighed.

"Waking up in the morning is already hard enough for me, I don't need another thing to mess up with my mind." I explained, playing with the end of my sweater.

I can't be with him because he deserves better than a girl whose life is on the edge.

"You will never be in a relationship." She groaned. "Luke is the one! I made you go out with the most amazing boys I know but none of them worked out for you, did you not figure out why?" She said.

Of course I knew why. Every date I went to didn't work out because of one thing, no matter how hard I tried to deny and hide the reason it will always haunt me.

"Because they're not Luke." I mumbled then pursed my lips.

"Jill, You love him. Trust me or at least trust your feelings for Mr.Australian."

"And you seriously need to come up with a better name for him." I playfully rolled my eyes.

"Alright then, noodle legs."
I gasped and tried to stop myself from laughing. "Hey that's mean!"

"Did that hurt your feelings?" She batted her eyelashes. "That's probably because you love him!"

I snorted. "Shut up."

"Well, enough of this. I owe you one for telling Ash he's hot anyway." She winked and I laughed at her.

"Flirt."

"Hey everyone thinks he's hot not just me!"

I just shrugged. "What can I say, he's a drummer. Drummers are hot."

"Exactly!" I laughed along with her. One of the things we have in common is that we are both into drummers, there's just something about them that makes them really sexy.

We talked for another half an hour, or maybe it was just her talking about Ash and I just listened to whatever she had to say until she ran out of words to describe how hot Ashton is and eventually we ended the call..