From Me to You ☆ Jung Kook

Chapter Twenty Four

I shut my eyes and tears roll down my cheeks. Why was this happening? Why now of all times when I need him?

I squat down and bury my face in my knees. I could care less that I was crying at school for everyone to see. What a fool I've been.

'Messing around with girls?' Is that all this was? I'm so stupid. Of course. What else could it have been? What is there to see in some immature sixteen year old girl?

Why does it hurt so much?

No. This can't be it. I...I need to see Jung Kook. This isn't like him. He would've said something to me. Maybe this is just a way to protect me. Everything was fine... so why?

I gather up my strengths and wipe away my tears. I get up and start making my way to the nearby coffee shop. The whole time I ignore the stabbing pain in my chest. With every step it seems like I'm coming closer to my doom. What is this heavy feeling in my chest?

My breath hitches when I see Jung Kook sitting at one of the tables outside. His hands are wrapped around his drink and he keeps looking down. Nervously, I approach him.

"O-Oppa." I tentavely say when I finally stop in front of him.

Jung Kook looks up. "Eun Kyung."

I put on a fake smile. "Were you thinking about me?"

"Of course." He chuckles. "Sit down."

"Eo."

I take the seat across from him. Jung Kook smiles warmly, yet I see the hint of sadness in his eyes.

"Did you learn a lot?" He asks awkwardly.

I nod. "Yeah."

"That's good. I went to school a few days ago too. It was nice."

I look down at my hands. Why is it so awkward?

"W-What is it, that you wanted to tell me?" I ask nervously.

Jung Kook suddenly averts his eyes. "Oh, that. Let's just wait a bit."

I bite my lip and ask, "Why won't you just tell me? What is it that you're hiding?"

"It's hard to explain. Let's j-" He starts.

"It's true then." I say and my voice cracks.

"Eun Kyung, please."

"This is it." I whisper.

"Listen to me. My feelings for you were sincere. You know that." Jung Kook says almost desperately.

Were.

I laugh humorlessly. "I thought you weren't interested in messing around with girls. So how could could your feelings have been sincere?"

"I had to say that. How else am I going to please the public?"

"You said you didn't care if people knew. Was that also just a way to please me?"

He grabs for my hand but I pull it back. A flash of hurt crosses his eyes.

"It wasn't like that. I meant everything I said and did with you."

"Did you? Because lately it seems like everyone is just playing around with my feelings. I trusted you. I went through so much, and now it was for nothing. How am I supposed to believe in your words now? Just a few hours ago, everything was like normal. But now it all changed. Why didn't you tell me? Why couldn't you at least make any excuses?"

"I was forced to choose. It was you or my dream. I didn't want to choose but I've worked my entire life for this." Jung Kook says guiltily.

I nod slowly. "So that's what it was. I understand. After all, I was never in the plan. I guess it was time I woke up from this dream. Eventually, we all have to face reality again. Looks like I was asleep for too long."