From Me to You ☆ Jung Kook

Chapter Thirty One

I had been waiting.

It had been a week since our argument and he still hadn't spoken a word to me.

He hadn't come to see me either. I had come to the conclusion that he was avoiding me.

Everyday my thoughts were filled with him. Did he think of me as much as I thought of him?

I doubt it.

It was driving me crazy, waiting everyday for him. A text, a call, a spontaneous appearance. But it was all I could do. I almost half expected him to show up for lunch with a picnic basket.

How much longer would it be? Should I just seek him out first?

Aish, why am I feeling like this? It's not like I even like him that much. Right? We're just...friends. But friends, they don't have these types of feelings.

They don't light up when you see him. They don't get butterflies when your fingers happen to brush against each other. They don't think about the words you said. Or the kiss you shared.

I cover my face with my pillow and huff. Why did I have to make things so complicated?

My phone rings and I jolt up. My face falls as I realize it's only an email and I throw myself back on the bed.

How of foolish of me to think it would be him.

Later at school I try to distract myself with my studies. I'm only one of the many students in the library. My chemistry book is flipped open and I'm working out an equation in my notebook.

This would be a great time to have Nam Joon oppa's help. I wasn't as close to him so this would be a great opportunity to become friends. Plus, I might even see Jung Kook.

I take out my phone and click on Nam Joon the Destructor. My eyebrows crease. When had I gotten his number? And what was with that caller ID?

Now that I think about it, where had I come up with the idea of Jung Kook packing a picnic basket? And how did I know that he had left me once before?

Either I was imagining things. Or slowly, I was regaining snippets of my old memories.

I wanted to tell Jung Kook. But we weren't talking. I frown, upset by how much I already cared about him in this short period of time. I guess I must've liked a lot before. Feelings from my older self had already resurfaced.

***

It turned out Nam Joon had some spare time on his hands. We met at their dorms in order to prevent him from being spotted.

"Welcome in." He greeted when I knocked on the door.

I looked around.

"Sorry about the mess. Boys are...messy as you can see."

I laughed. "It's fine. My room isn't much better."

I was lying. My room was very clean. But what could I say? There was an old pizza box laying on the coffee table. Socks littered around the floor and chip bags stuffed in random places.

"Oh, you got a new tv." I say.

Nam Joon stares at me blankly. "How do you know that?"

"I...I don't know." I say honestly, furrowing my eyebrows.

"Don't worry about it." He picked up some wrappers and the pizza box. "You can set up your stuff on the table. Let me just throw this out."

I took out my textbook, a pencil, and my notebook and waited for Nam Joon to come back.

"Where are the others?" I ask as he sits down.

"Suga is supposedly writing a song. Though really he's just sleeping. Ho Seok is with his sister. Ji Min went shopping with Jin and Jung Kook is at a cousin's wedding."

"Oh."

"Now we won't have any interruptions." He smiled.

I giggled. "They can be quite distracting."

After about an hour, I was finally making sense of the chemical formulas. I breathed a sigh of relief.

"You've been such a huge help. I thought I was going to fail the test test we have on Friday." I say with a big smile.

Nam Joon smiles and ruffles my hair.

"I'm glad you're back. We really missed you."

My eyes widen, slightly surprised by this sudden confession.

"Ah, thank you..."

"But," He says. "I want you to stop leading them on. Jung Kook and Seok Jin hyung. The more a friend you are to him, the more hurt Jin gets and the more misunderstandings you create.

"Jung Kook is still young. It's only natural for him to get easily jealous. I'm just afraid the situation will eventually effect the group."

"I...I didn't know."

"I know. So, it'd be great if you could hurry up and remember and finally choose. I don't want to see my brothers get hurt."

I nod. Not knowing what to say.

"I'll walk you home."

"Okay."

When he opens the door we run into Jung Kook. He was the first and last person I wanted to see. I look away awkwardly.

"Hey." Jung Kook says.

For a second I thought he had spoken to me. My lips had parted, ready to greet him. But it wasn't me his words were for.

"Hey. I'll be back in a few minutes." Nam Joon says.

He nods, walking past us into the house. I bite my lip. My heart constricted in my chest. I brushed my hair back behind my ear and inhaled deeply.

Buy how could he have just walked by like that?

"Thanks for the offer, Nam Joon oppa. But I'd like to walk home by myself." I say.

"Are you su-"

"Positive."

He gives me one last glance before conceding.

"Alright. Call me if you need anything."

"I will."

I couldn't understand why he was being like this. And I don't know how much more of it I was going to take.

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A/N: Hello there! Here is chapter 31(finally)! It's kinda crappy, but nevertheless I hope you semi enjoyed it. Thanks for sticking with me. I promise to not disappear like that again.

Much love,
Kpop_girl328