||The Wounds||

||Dear mummy!||

It's been an awful afternoon talking to a broken mirror and an empty room. Blood running out of my hand but i don't feel not even a little pain. Pieces of glasses around with me standing on the ground. I'm a psycho a magnificent psycho.

I said to my sister that i didn't wanted to be disturb because i was having a terrible headache but everything was a lie. A stupid lie.

I switched off my phone as i looked the door. I wanted be alone , really.. alone this time. I wished i could day months ago because you passed away grandpa...but i couldn't do them deeper that time because i was afraid of dying. Then he came on my life and ruined it more than it was ruined. My second time trying to die but again i was saved but this time with wounds deeper and unhealed. My pain is raising everyday! My heart is broken and my head is hurting every single day. I'm so tired being here, stressed and unhealed. My depression keeps growing and growing every day. Those wounds will never heal and what is broken will never be unbroken. This pain is just too real. There's just too much the time cannot erase. I sang as i wiped away all my tears.

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone

But though you're still with me

I've been alone all along.

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I took some pieces of paper and a pen as i laid down on the ground full of glasses.I start writing:

_______________________________________________________________________________                 Dear mummy!
I wanted to thank you for helping me in every single step I have made. Sorry for not being the girl you really and truly deserved. I have disappointed you a lot, i know! It was never your fault, it was all mine! I ruined my life and yours! I chosed the wrong path, the wrong boy and the wrong love story to live. I can call myself stupid for hurting myself when you all were asleep, for crying myself every single night because of those wounds. Hurting and ruining my body was my only salvation from depression. 

Even  if you tried a lot, mum you couldn't understand it! Mum and dad ....thank you for taking care of me these past years , for your advices and for giving me everything to be completed. Dad the boy next door, the boy of your friend you grew up and spent your high school together raped me. He lied to all of us, just to use me for his collections of pleasure. Please tell this to the police, that maniac has hurt other girls too. He is dangerous! Mum say to Evan i love him with all my heart and i want him to be happy with Nora! I've seen the way she looks at him and how carry she is around him. She is the one for him! Tell him to promise me that he will take care and love her. 
She deserves him more than Me! Please tell all my friends that i love them and i will take care of them from above. They will always on my mind and heart! Please Emily promise me that you will finish with Adam, he is really the one for you and together you are masterpieces. I've seen the way he looks at you, the way he get jealous for you and the way he loves you. Please, love him back! Emma and Adam you are my role model, stay like this forever please! Guys thank you for everything you have given me , for every beautiful and crazy moment we have spent together. You helped me build all those beautiful memories that will never be faded. You were the best friendship i could ever wish and i am happy that god but you on my way. Thank you for everything you have done and forgive me for my mistakes , everything i couldn't do. I'm sorry for hurting you in times and not giving you the attention you all deserved! 
My beautiful and wonderful Annabeth! You will always be my amazing sibling. You are my smile and my heart, you are everything to me! Please,make me proud when i am gone! Ann be a great and good student and be the role model i couldn't be for you! Make my family happy, even if i won't be there. I'll smile and cry every time you will feel hurt or happy. You should be a big an good girl and please don't cry for me. Grandma, my sweet muse! I will always miss you cupcakes and you sweet words. I will tell grandpa how much you love him and those tears you have cried. We both will take care for you from above! I love you all! 
                                                                                                                                 Your angel, Lucy!

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I took some pills from the box medicine and a glass of water to finish everything! Yes my dear friends this was my story that couldn't be finished with an happy ending. I suffered a lot and i made the others suffer for me but at least i got the lesson i needed. Please girls never fall fr the wrong boy, never try to hurt yourself for someone, never hurt yourself because of depression or because you were rejected. At least i learned for my mistakes don't do the same thing like me. 

 This was your story Lucy Green, rest in peace! 

                                                                  |The End!|

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Hey guys! :'( 
I finally made it! I reached the end of the story. I'm so sorry for making you cry or sad for the unhappy ending but that's how i planed it since the begging.   
This book was a planed to be about girls that kill themself because of our abusive society and awful genre. 
This is like a message i want to give to all the girls to think before they make bad decision. Don't ruin your life because of boys, don't call yourself ugly or hurt yourself because of them. You are a female and all of us are beautiful in our ways. Be brave and strong and love yourself first because after you will be loved by so much people. You will find a guy like Evan or a friendship like Adam, Emily, Emma and Alan. 
Please love yourself because you are beautiful, smart, brave and a female! 
Never stop smiling! As my favorite youtuber says: If you are not smiling you are doing it wrong!
Stay tune for the epilogue. 
The video at the beginning inspired me to do all this story. Please watch it!
~Author note!