After all this time im still into you

Chapter 9

I got up the next day and got ready. I walked into the back lounge where Taylor and Jeremy where.

" Morning " I said with a smile

" Morning " they both said not taking there eyes of the tv. usually Taylor would give me a hug and kiss but today he never.

" Are you guys alright " I asked

" Of course " Jeremy said still not looking at me. I walked away and left them. they where acting extremely weird for some odd reason. I went to the front of the bus and grabbed a box of cereal and ate it dry out the box.

I went on twitter and looked threw my time line. nothing interesting was on it. I went to the trends and my eyes went wide and tears starting to sting the back of my eyes. the number one trend was

#RIPemma

I clicked on it and a profile was tagged in one of the tweets. it was Emma from last night. tears started to roll down my cheeks as I read one of her tweets

" It's time for me to go my wish came true I got to sing with hayley. that's all I was waiting for before I left. "

I through my phone on the table and then ran out if the bus. I didn't want to be near Jeremy or Taylor right now I just needed to be on my own. We where in la for the concert tonight but right now I didn't want to do it. I just wanted to keep walking and see where I end up.

If only I picked someone else to come on stage she would still be here. I could have picked someone who was screaming yet I picked her.

" Hayley please take a picture with me ". I heard people shout but I just kept walking. " hayley over here " they kept shouting but I still kept walking. don't get me wrong I love our fans more than anything but right now I had to be on my own.

I walked done the streets of la with my head down. people where asking for photos or autographs but I just kept walking I didn't mean to be rude but I couldn't take pictures with people and pretend to be happy when really I'm not I'm far from it.

I found a bench and sat down since my legs where sore from walking. all that kept going through my head was that I shouldn't have picked Emma and her dying was all my fault. I felt someone sit next to me i could have swore it was a fan but it wasn't it was a old lady

" Oh dear are you alright " she said

I looked at her and shook my head.

" What's wrong " she asked concerned

" One of our fans died and it was all my fault " I said as I looked at the ground

" How was it your fault " she asked

" If I never picked her to sing with me she would still be here. she comited sucide last night because the last thing she wanted to do before she died was to sing with me and I picked her this is all my fault " I said as tears rolled down my cheeks

" dear this isn't your fault she was probably in a horrible place. don't ever blame yourself for her killing herself. you had no idea that she was going to kill herself after she sung with you. You where probably her role model, I bet she loved you more than anything in this world. just know that you probably put a smile on that girls face when she looked at you "

" Thank you. I have to go now I have a concert tonight. " I said as I got up and walked away

" Good luck hayley " she said behind me. i turned around and smiled at her before walking way. I walked back to the bus and went inside. I picked my phone up and looked at the time. it was 5.30 we only had a hour and a half before the concert and we haven't even done sound check.