After all this time im still into you

Chapter 22

It was later that day and I finally found Emma.

" Emma I'm sorry for what i said and did. " I said to her

" You humiliated me in front of everyone who's on parahoy. do you have any idea how that feels . of course you don't your hayley williams people will bow down to you and think your nothing but sweet but in reality your nothing but a ignorant bitch " Emma shouted

I felt tears sting the back of my eyes and I tried to blink them back but they fell anyway " Emma I'm so sorry I was just pissed and I shouldn't have done what I did. I really am sorry " I said as the tears rolled down my cheeks

" I don't care about your sorry you made me do this " she showed me her wrists which had cuts all over them. I put my hand Over my mouth and cried even more. " As far as I'm concerned your no idol of mine. I hate you for what you did to me and I can never forgive you never " she shouted. I ran past her and out of her cabin. I ran down the hall way and into a bathroom. I ran into a stall and threw up. I made a girl cut her wrists. it was me who made her feel pain, it was me her idol.

" Are you ok ?" a girl asked. I looked up at her since I never closed the door. her eyes winded and she ran. I wiped the sick away from my mouth and sat against the wall.

A few minuets later I heard Taylor run in shouting my name. he got to where I was and sat next to me. he pulled me close and hugged me tight

" Come on baby speak to me " he said but I never said anything. Jeremy appeared text to Taylor

" Is she ok ?" Jeremy asked concerned

" I don't think so " Taylor replied

" We better get her back to your cabin " Jeremy said and Taylor nodded

" Come on hayleys stand up with me " Taylor said. I don't what he said and stood up. Jeremy and Taylor helped me back to mine and Taylor cabin and lay me Down on the bed.

Taylor's p.o.v

I told Jeremy to watch hayley. I had to find Emma because I knew this had something to do with her. I looked all over the boat and then I finally found her sitting on her own. I walked over to her

" What did you do to hayley " I said behind her which made her jump

" I told her some home truths " she replied

" Like what ?" I asked confused

" Well that's she ignorant and that's he was no longer my Idol. Oh and I showed her my wrists because she made me cut again " she said

" Hold On no one makes you cut your wrists Emma that's your option. I know you are depressed and stuff like that but don't you dare blame hayley for you cutting your wrists. she's a state because of it she really cares about it though you may not see it now but she really does and if this is how you repay someone for caring then I don't even want to know what you do to other people. just stay away from hayley " I said before storming away.

I can't believe that's she just blamed Hayley for her cutting her wrists. it's not as if Hayley took the blade to her arm and done it her self. I heard someone run up behind me I turned around to see Emma

" Taylor I'm really sorry. I didn't know that hayley cared about me and I didn't think that she would be like this please I need to see her and talk to her " she said. I nodded my head and told her to follow me

Hayleys p.o.v

I lay on the bed and Jeremy sat next to me. none of us said anything we just sat there. the door opened and I heard someone rush over to me

" Omg hayley I'm so sorry I never meant for you to feel this way " Emma said. I turned away from her because I couldn't bare to look at her after what I did " you didn't make me cut myself I done it because I wanted to not because you forced me and I should never have said it was your fault. your my idol and I shouldn't have said you weren't because you where the only one I ever looked up. you taught me to not care what anyone thought of me and to be me, you taught me that no boy was worth my teenage years. you also taught me that I wasn't to listen to anyone who said I was no good because they where no better. hayley you made me the person I am today and I couldn't thank you enough " she said

I turn around and looked at her " your really mean that " I asked

" Of course I do. hayley your my idol and you always will be I love you more than anything " she said. I sat up and opened my arms and she hugged me tight

" I love you to sweetie. " I said as I hugged her close

Authors note

So I thought I would put Taylor p.o.v in this chapter since I never do. I'm going to write another paramore fanfic so if use could give me any ideas that would be great :)