After all this time im still into you

Chapter 33

I walked up the small hill to the church. everyone who was attending the funeral was standing out side talking or hugging each other. I walked up and stood on my own until a women came up to me.

" Hayley you really didn't need to come all the way here but thank you for being here " she said.

" I wanted to be here. Emma was a special girl I wish that she never done it " I Replied

" Everyday she would talk about you she even kept going on about how she wanted you to adopt her. She loved you more than anything and I'm glad that you where her idol " she said

" Thanks I couldn't have asked for a better fan " I replied

" Come on we should head inside " she said and then walked away. I followed the crowd of people into the church and then I sat up at the back.

A couple of minuets later her coffin came in. As the men carried the coffin they cried. I wiped a tear that was rolling down my cheek.

*****

It was half way through the service and Emma's mom was talking about emma.

" I can't believe that my princess is really gone. she's tried to kill her self so many times but I never in my life thought that she would actually die. she always listened to last hope by paramore to keep her going. she was a special girl and I know that we will

Never forget her. I remember when we where on parahoy she made a connection with Hayley Williams, you know that night she came back to our cabin and said to me mum you no what I never in my life thought I could love some so much even though I didn't know them and now that I do my love for her has grew so much. You will always be loved my dear I miss you more than anything " her mom said and then lay a rose on her coffin

Hannah walked up and stood looking out at everyone " you know I never thought this day would come. she was my cousin and my best friend. We done everything together and even when we fell out we still had each other's back. before she you know done it she wrote this .

dear Hannah

I know that once you read this your going to be extremely mad and your going to hate me forever but it's ok I don't blame you. god if I could stay on this world then I would but I can't it's just to hard. I think the thing that pushed me the most to do it was Hayley dying. for months I thought about doing it but when I was in parahoy things changed.i noticed how much I was cared for by hayley and the guys. to be honest I thought I was just another fan to them but really I was like a friend to them. I know you will miss me and I'm so sorry for doing this to you but you have got to understand that I have to do this. i love you always Hannah. remember that I will be looking down on you always

Love Emma

I love you Emma so much thanks for being my best friend " Hannah said and then walked away wiping away her tears

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The funeral had ended and I was now in my hotel room. I lay on my bed thinking about what happened today. Just seeing all her family and how much they where hurting made me feel guilty as if her dying was my fault.

If only I stayed in and not went out I wouldn't have been in the car crash. then again how was I suppose to know that a car was going to hit me. I sighed and got up off my bed. I went over to my phone and picked it up. I searched JetBlue and managed to get a flight that left in the next 2 hours.

I quickly packed my case and then left the the hotel room and headed to the airport.