After all this time im still into you

Chapter 20

My eyes went wide as I looked at her. she just stood the looking at the ground. Jeremy and Taylor rushed over to me and held me up.

" Is it just me or is Emma standing over there " I whispered

" No she's there " taylor said holding n to me tight

" I better go " she said before leaving. I got out of Taylor and Jeremy's hold and ran after her.

" Emma wait up " i shouted and she stopped. She turned around and looked at me

" I thought you where dead " I said to her as I looked away from her

" I nearly was " she replied

' What do you mean nearly " i said now looking at her

" Well I slit my wrists and got in the bath, I lost a lot of blood and I was nearly dead but luckily my mom caught me before it was to late. I got took to the hospital and I got put in a coma I only woke up about 3 months ago " she replied

" So you've been awake for about 3 months and you didn't think to say on twitter that you where alive or even mail me. I blamed my self for your death I was a wreck Emma, I thought that I made you kill yourself do you have any idea how that feels ' I shouted at her.

" Jeez Hayley I didn't mean for anyone to get hurt " she replied

" Well guess what Emma people did get hurt. " I shouted tears where stinging the back of my eyes

'' I didn't want to hurt you Hayley it was the last thing I wanted to do I just wanted to die. you've got to understand where I'm coming from " she said

" Understand what that you are a a silly wee girl who likes to hurt people. I would have been there for you Emma but now I'm not and I never will be " I said before storming away with tears running down my cheeks.

" Hayley I'm so sorry " she shouted but I just ignored her and kept walking. I went to the far end of the boat and looked over at the water.

" Hayley are you ok '' I heard savannah say. I turned around and looked at her and shook my head. she walked over to me and pulled me into a hug. " What's wrong " she asked once we stopped hugging. I wiped my tears away and smiled

" Nothing " I said and then walked away. I didn't want to tell her my problems when she has her own. I walked to mine and Taylor cabin and lay down on the bed.

I was pissed off at Emma but I still felt sorry for her. I mean she's went through hell and here I was her idol giving her grief about it all. I couldn't help but shout at her though, I thought she was dead and she just pops up out of the blue. I sighed and got up. I went over to my closet and picked out what I wanted to wear for tonight before heading back down to the stage.

" Are you alright ?" Taylor asked

" Yeah just a bit pissed but I'm alright " i said an then made my way to our dressing room where Brian was.

" Hey girl long time no see " he said as I walked in.

" I know it feels like forever " I repelled and gave him a hug

" Are you alright you seem a little stressed " he said as he walked Over to all his make up.

" Nah I'm alright " I replied as I sat down by the mirror

" Alright then lets get started " he said

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I was standing on stage about to sing ignorance but I decided to tell a story to the audience before I started .