• josh had never been one for straight forward relationships. the only thing straight about them was the fact he always dated the opposite gender... before he came out he dated guys, and after he came out he dated girls. that was it. he didn't care.
but that's besides the point, which was that things never seemed right to him. he even considered once or twice that he was aromantic or asexual... that was never the case. he wasn't. he wanted to be fucked, for sure. he thought about it often.
anyway. he always felt like there was something missing. nothing was ever up to a certain standard.
which was what?
"josh?"
the red haired opens his eyes, immediately meeting brendon's. they were lying on the older boys bed, keeping their thoughts to themselves. neither of them had moved in a while.
"yeah?"
brendon forces a smile.
"are you okay? you seem sad."
joshua sighs, not really knowing how to explain what he was feeling. "i'm fine. i just got a bit lost in thought, you know?"
nodding, the raven haired agrees. "yeah. what's on your mind?"
"i can't really explain it. i'm not sure myself."
brendon bites his tongue. "okay."
it goes silent.
"you look so good from his angle."
the youngest blushes, a toothy grin appears onto his face, making brendon do the same. they were both rosy like idiots.
"shut up, brendon."
"but i'm serious!"
josh rolls his eyes. "okay."
raising an eyebrow, the raven haired boy rolls his tongue, thinking to himself. josh studies his face, his beautiful, beautiful, face. "sleepover?"
josh's face lights up. man, it must have been weeks since their last sleepover.
"yes!"
brendon laughs, getting out of bed. "okay, good. because i'm way too tired to walk you home."
they had agreed in the past that whoever's house they were in always walked the other home, and it always ended up around equal.
after their trip to mcdonald's, the pair had walked to brendon's house to watch some old musical dvds, before getting too drowsy to continue and making their way to brendon's only bed, staring into each other's eyes with only the sound of their breathing and the cars outside.
"flattering, really."
brendon pulls off his shirt, revealing his toned body, josh smirking behind his back, totally impressed. he got a little more muscular every time he saw him undress. then, he pulls on a shirt and some baggy bottoms, trying to hide a grin."
"okay, joshie." the red haired chuckles. "do you want something to wear?"
josh nods. "obviously. pass anything over."
brendon throws josh a white shirt and some shorts, who walks into the bathroom to get changed. he didn't like brendon watching him, and his friend understood that. he always had.
a few moments later, josh walks out of the bathroom to see the boy in bed with the blanket pulled over his shoulders, smiling stupidly.
he makes his way over to the bed, about to step in, until he is stopped. "uh, are you missing something?" brendon says, josh looks at him, confused.
"uh... um, no?" he plays dumb. he knew exactly what he was talking about.
"binder. off. now. you know very well you've worn it too long already. take it off, or you're not getting into this bed. you're sleeping outside, in the rain. it's against the rules."
josh pouts, sighing. "but, i-"
"-no." brendon interrupts him. "now, josh. you heard me the first time. i've seen you naked before, and i'll take it off you myself if i have to, you know i will."
the boy turns around, facing his back to his friend, taking off his shirt and binder, quickly throwing the shirt back over his bare chest. he drops his binder onto the ground, pouting.
he faces his friend once more, looking into his eyes. "good boy. now, come here. i want to give you all the hugs in the world."
once again, something was still missing. and it wasn't just his flat chest.
josh pouts, stepping into the warm bed, facing brendon once more, their breathes mingle.
silence floods the room.
brendon leans in closer, placing his nose on to his friends, scrunching up his face playfully. "turn around."
the smaller boy does as he's told, turning onto his side, feeling brendon's arms wrap around him tightly. "now sleep."
