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Scars

A/n: for an amazing person 🙈

It was finally the weekend and you were super excited. Not because it was a Friday evening but because your girlfriend of six months had been on tour for the last few weeks, and she was on her way home.

You quickly dived from the sofa when you heard the front door open and ran into the foyer to see your perfect girlfriend standing there with a huge grin on her face.

"BABY!"..."I missed you!" You exclaimed, opening your arms wide as she practically tackled you.

"I missed you so much!" She cried, wrapping her self around you and holding on tightly.

You were lost in your own world as Lauren pushed you up against the wall and kissed you with so much passion, you locked your arms around her waist and she jumped up for you to catch her.

The pair of you maneuvered through the house, she was now planting kisses on your neck, making you moan as you carried her to your room.

"Mmm, baby." She whispered, still attacking your neck with her mouth and leaving her mark on you.

"You're so sexy Lauren." You mumbled, feeling your whole body become heated.

She immediately lowered herself to the floor and took the lead, pulling you onto the bed and then straddled you. She reached the hem of your shirt and looked at you with a wink. "Can we- you know?"

That's when you started to panic, there was something that you were hiding from her.

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The truth is that you had recently transitioned genders. You were born a girl but had never felt comfortable within your gender and never really identified with being a girl, you knew that you should be a boy. Therefore, just before you met Lauren, you had completed the final part of the surgery and had surgery on your chest to look like a boy. However, your girlfriend of six months is not aware of your past, and you wanted to tell her, but the anxiety was taking over you. The pair of you had never gotten any further than heated make out sessions but you knew that Lauren wanted to take things further, you wanted to too and to show how much you love her by being more intimate. However, you were so so scared about what she would think when she eventually finds out.

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"Babe."..."Slo-slow down." You stuttered, panicking that she would see your body.

You gently took her hands in yours, so that she couldn't remove your t-shirt and see the scars that were on your chest.

This made her quickly snap her head up to you and look with concern."Oh shit! Uhm, did I go too far?"..."Did I do something wrong?" She rambled, running her fingers nervously through her hair.

"no! no- it's not tha-that, you're perfect babe." You reassured.

With that, she moved back down, kissing your jawline and you wanted nothing more than to reciprocate but then remembered the real reason. So you started to breathe quickly again.

"Hey, calm down baby."..."breathe, it's okay, it's just me."..."I want to make you feel goo-"

"Lauren stop."..."I need to tell you somet-thing." You stuttered, feeling the anxiety course through your trembling body.

When she heard that, she instantly sat back up and looked at you with so much worry.

"What's happened y/n?"

You panicked and said, "Ple-please don't freak out Lauren, I can't lose you."

"Please don't say you cheated."..."Oh my god! You're breaking up with me?!"..."Did I do somet-" She said, her eyes begin to water and her voice was breaking.