Drowning in a River of Denial (Jalex)

When Your Skin Is Pressed To Mine

It had just turned ten at night I was wide awake. I couldn't say the same about Jack, though. His eye lids drooped lazily and his breathing was slightly heavier. We both sat cross legged, the tv playing music videos that we'd be criticising for at least the past two hours.

"Jack," I finally said, my tone soft as if to not scare him. He jumped slightly and hummed out what sounded like a yes. "You wanna go to sleep?"

"You're tired?" He asked, his speech becoming slurred due to his now intense tiredness.

"Sure," I nodded despite actually being the complete opposite. "Where do you want to sleep? The bed?" I tacked on the last part without even thinking. Oh fuck, he's straight, why would he sleep in the same bed as me? Not that he knew of my possible crush or my being gay.

"Where would you sleep, then?" He asked. Oh thank fuck, he didn't think I meant sharing the bed.

"The floor," I replied, sliding off my bed to begin my makeshift bed.

"The floor? No, Alex, don't be stupid. You're tired, just sleep here," he mumbled, patting the spot next to him as if I didn't know where he meant.

I nodded shyly, hoping he wouldn't notice my pink cheeks in his sleepy state.

I turned on the old, mossy coloured lamp next to my bed and turned off the main light, allowing the room to be illuminated by the orangey light emitted from the lamp. Shadows were casted off basically everything.

I smiled to myself when I found Jack under the covers, his eyes carefully watching me.

I joined him under the blankets, leaving a large amount of space between us. I could feel my back exposed to the cold air of the room. If I moved any further away, I'd be on the ground.

"Lex? I'm cold," Jack complained. Lex? That was a new one.

"Want me to get another blanket? Or I-" I started to suggest before he cut me off.

"No, why would I want another blanket when you're right there?" He asked rhetorically. Did he mean he wanted me to move closer?

"What do you want me to do?" I wondered, my voice hesitant.

"Come closer," he whispered. I barely shuffled an inch. He rolled his eyes and coaxed me closer until I was in the middle of the bed, approximately three inches from Jack.

I flicked off the lamp only moments later, mostly to hide my red cheeks.

"Goodnight, Jack," I mumbled.

"Night, Lex," he whispered back.

I turned over, my back facing Jack. I felt the bed shift slightly before Jack's warm body pressed firmly against my back, fitting perfectly against me. But that wasn't all, he slung his arm over my waist, patted around until he found my hand and took it in his. After this, he sighed in content.

I was completely and utterly perplexed. Straight men don't do this. They don't spoon with their male friends. They don't hold hands with them.

I'd never been this close to him before. I've never been close enough to feel his breath hit me in slow, deep breaths.

With confusion hazing my brain, I finally dozed off.

I woke up to the sound of Jack yawning. Our position remained the same; hand in hand, our bodies fitted together. I grinned to myself, feeling his warm body pressed against me.

"Morning," I said, my voice coated in sleep.

"G'morning," he hummed. Both Jack and I turned onto our backs, not daring to disconnect our hands. His hair has become messy, sticking up in all different directions. But this only happened on the side he'd been sleeping on. "You were amazing last night," he said breathily, implying that we'd... Done things. The look of shock on my face must have been pretty damn hilarious to Jack because he spent at least five minutes laughing.

"Very funny, Jack," I muttered, letting a small grin and chuckle.

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Hey! So this is a very short chapter, I know. But I really wanted to update and this is sort of just a filler. I'm doing this on my phone because my fucking laptop broke and I'm supposed to get a new one soon. I'll update when I get it for sure.

So I went to the Aussie Vans Warped Tour and it was amazing. I went with a friend and we saw Tonight Alive, Veara, Kids In Glass Houses and We Came As Romans.

Votes make me happy.

Feedback makes me feel stabtacular.

Title credit : Me Without You (All I Ever Wanted) by All Time Low