Learning to Love Again

Chapter 12

Chapter 12~

Louis's POV~


I got in my car and set down my red hoodie. It was a bit damp but that's alright, it's just a jacket. I couldn't help but feel something was off, like something was wrong.

Just then my phone went off in my pocket. I got it out and saw I had a text, from Cathie. I opened the message.

From Cathie: I'm going back to New York tonight, I'm sorry.



I read that message over and over again, not believing what it said. This couldn't be it! I punched the steering wheel, I punched it hard enough to feel the car shake. I tossed my phone onto the passenger seat, and rubbed my hands over my face. Cathie wanted to spend her last day in town with me, and I messed everything up! I could've told her how I felt!

I wanted to shout every obscenity I knew, but I couldn't because if I spoke I was sure to break down in tears. Then I got an idea. I sarted the engine and pulled out of the parking space. I began driving as fast as I could to Cathie's Aunt and Uncle's house. This is my last chance.

------25 minutes later-------

BEEEEEEEP

I heard a horn sound when I pulled out onto a busy road. I'm only a few minutes from Cathie's house, I hope she's still there.

I saw the road that led to the secluded house and signaled the turn.

When I reached the driveway I saw Cathie coming outside with her suitcase. Relieved, I stopped my car, and jumped out all in one motion.

I saw the shocked expression on her face as I ran up to her and hugged her, swinging her around in a circle.

"Louis?! Louis, what are you doing here?!"

I set her down, but didn't let her go. What was I going to say? I should have thought about that on the way here... I released her from the hug "I got your text... Why didn't you tell me sooner?"

She looked down at her shoes and shifted her weight uncomfortably. "I-it was too hard for me to say, to tell you. I didn't really know how to tell you either..." I heard her breath catch and I knew she was trying not to cry. Should I say something? Then in a small voice she spoke again, "I have to go, Louis. My flight leaves soon." I watched as she grabbed her suitcase and put it in the trunk. I couldn't do anything but watch, there was this pain growing deep in my chest.

Cathie closed the trunk and began walking to the driver's side door. She didn't look at me as she rounded the front of the car, only when she went to open the door did she glance up at me through the window. I'll never forget her eyes in that moment, so full of sadness and conflict. before she could open the door I was next to her, blocking it.

She looked right at the door handle as she spoke," Louis, I have to go. Please."

I have to go. Those words were like a blow to my heart. I wanted to cry, to show her how badly I needed her here-with me. But I also knew I had to be strong.i had too many things swarming through my head like a hive of angry bees. I can't just let her go, I can't make that mistake twice.

I steeped away from the door and watched as Cathie opened it and began to get in. Now! Now Louis!

I reached out my hand to try and grab her arm, but she closed the door. I heard the engine starting and I saw her put on her seatbelt, but I wasn't processing any of it. The window you idiot!

I quickly knocked on the window. Cathie looked at me shocked and the window began rolling down. She looked at me expectantly, hopefully.

"U-uh... Bye, Cathie." Her face fell back to sadness, but she tried to hide it.
"Bye, Louis."

She roles the window up and I backed away from the car. She turned the corner, and that was it.

I stared at the road, willing Cathie to come back. Maybe she forgot something?

The weather got worse and after 15 minutes it was clear she wasn't coming back, so I headed back to my car. I started the engine and put on my seatbelt- like a robot. I didn't feel anything as I drove to the rental house, I was numb.

When I got to the house I walked to my room like a zombie.

As I walked through the living room I heard a game being shown on the television. I heard one of the guys call to me, it was probably Niall.
"Hey Lou! Nice to have you back, how was your day?" I heard the smirk through his voice, " Why don't you come watch the rest of the game?" his voice followed me down the hall, joined by the others.

I closed my door behind me. The room began to spin around me. I fell onto my bed, I couldn't stand I was too dizzy. Or maybe my legs weren't working right. So I laid there, on my bed, completely alone.

I heard a quiet knock in my door a couple minutes later. "What?" my voice was muffled by the sheets, but whoever was outside my door still heard me.

"Lou, what's wrong?" It was Liam.
When I didn't reply, he took it upon himself to walk into my room. " Did something happen today, Lou?"
I still didn't answer, I kept my face hidden in my sheets. He tried again,"Lo-" he was cut off by the sound of my phone going off next to me. Someone was calling me. Liam questioned me, " Aren't you going to get that?" After the second ring it was obvious I wasn't going to, so he picked it up and the ringing stopped as he answered it. "Hello, Louis's phone, Liam speaking. who is this?" I turned my head to the side to see Liam holding my phone to his ear. He looked at me when the person on the other end replied. He handed me the phone and- as i put it up to my ear- watched to make sure I didn't hang up.

I gave him a quizzical look before saying "hello?"

"Louis?"

My heart dropped down to my stomach at the sound of her voice.


-------------------A/N------------------

AHHHHH!! Ok I'm too excited for these next few chapters :D

I do realize last chapter was kind of short, and in a way I made up for it with this super duper early update :) I hope you all like it :D

And I most likely won't be updating again this week because of finals :P but I will try my hardest to get chapter 13 out there by sometime next week!

I love all of you who read my story, who comment and give me feedback, and for all you guys who vote for my story! Mwah :* I love you, and again I apologize for the short chapters!

Dont be afraid to give me feedback! comment on the chapters, Id love to here what you guys think so far!

P.S Try reading this chapter and chapter 11 again, but with sad love songs/ broken heart songs. If you make it through with out getting teary eyed well give yourself a pat on the back!
And if you decide to do that, feel free to leave a comment telling me how it went! did you or didn't you cry? I did honestly... :'|

And shout out to my friend for coming up with "blow to my heart" :)
~ Mckenzie