lose yourself::younow

second

loren's pov

"ugh, arii is taking forever to get to lunch." mario says while looking at his phone.

basically everyone but me was staring at their phones.

i was sitting next to zach and blake. blake was looking through his instagram feed. while zach was tweeting about something.

i layer my head on his shoulder. i looked at him rereading his tweet. i then looked at his tweet.

first day of school with my favorite smol bean! @/beechloren02

zach and i had only about 100 followers. none of them really liked our tweets.

"look who's here." i hear mario say.

i look up to see a tall girl.

"arii, this is zach and loren." ariel says. "and zach and loren, this is arii."

i wave and this time zach does too.

"are you guys dating?" arii asks while she takes a seat.

"nooooo." i say extending the o. "we've been friends forever."

she opens her mouth making an oval shape. she then takes out her phone.

"do any of you guys eat?" i ask while opening my untouched pink lunch bag.

"well there's two times for lunch if your a freshman." mario explains. and actually looking away from his phone. "you can either eat now, at 10:40, or you can eat at 2:10. we always eat at 2:10."

"oh." i just say looking down.

i close my lunch bag and look at zach. he's not being the way he usually is. he would usually tell me everything. now he's becoming like the other guys. just on their phones.

"i'm gonna go to the bathroom." i say and get up.

nobody hears me.

i run off and some tears start to cry out.

i don't think i'll ever experience what it feels like to have real friends.

maybe i'll never have a real life.

it's only your first day to get to know them loren.

i start to walk again. but i'm lost. it's a new school.

i see a kinda cute boy walking around my age.

"hey, do you know where the bathroom is?" i ask.

"down that hallway." he says with a quick smile.

"thanks." i say. "i'm loren by the way."

"that's a pretty name." he says. "i'm jonas, jonas bridges."

i smile and walk down the hallway looking back. he does a quick little wave. and i do the same back.

-

i honestly don't know why i get so mad.

it's always been a thing.

now here i am,

in the second stall of the girls bathroom,

just being sad.

new characters:

jonas bridges: 16

arii: 15