lose yourself::younow

nineteenth

loren's pov

after school my new boyfriend, joey, drove me to my house.

"thanks for the ride." i say while getting out of his car.

"anything to make you happy." he says with a wide smile.

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later that evening i hear the doorbell ring.

my parents weren't home and weren't coming back till late.

"who is it?" i ask before opening the door.

"zachary clayton."

i open the door.

"hello."

"hey."

"you've changed."

"everybody changes."

"you promised."

"that i would never wear heels?"

"yes."

"sorry."

"and you changed your look."

"you changed your look when you were eight."

"do you seriously think that i would wear dinosaur shirts the rest of my life?"

"umm."

"you also changed your hair."

"you did too."

"i looked like a mushroom."

"goodbye."

i shut the door immediately regretting what i have done.

after eight seconds from shutting the door in zach's face, i go back and open it.

and there he is; standing still like he's waiting for something.

"what are you waiting for?"

"for the old loren to come back."

"she's gone." "forever."

"i'll wait for as long as it takes."

he sits on the steps facing the other way.

i shut the door again, but not regretting what i did.

i'm a new loren.

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zach's pov

lolo🤗:just so you know, we're no longer friends

read 6:46 pm

i turn off my phone and start walking back to my house.

she's not coming back.

the old loren is faded away.

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blake's confession

seeing loren with that other boy broke my heart.

it makes me flip.

"she's the tear
in my
heart,
i'm
alive."