I'll Always Remember You

Secrets

Nicki's POV

Maddie and Riker were gone, Amanda and Ross were due to be here in an hour. I had time to spare. While Rocky was making dinner, I snuck up to our room and rummaged through the drawers beside my bed. I found the old journal. One I had been keeping ever since I had married Rocky. It had been a few days since my last entry, and I needed to write my emotions away. pressed my pen onto the paper and wrote.

Secrets are hard to keep. Especially from your loving husband. But it's better that he doesn't know. Better that he doesn't have to go through the pain. Maybe my baby won't remember what living hell is about to happen. Maybe Rocky and I can just forget. And continue our lives without pain. But that won't happen. Life is painful. But at the same time it's beautiful. I can't wait to see my beautiful child. The way that he/she will grow. The way he/she will look. Will the baby have Rocky's eyes? Will it have my nose? Bust most importantly, Will our precious baby be healthy?

I stopped and put my pen down. The tears flowed down with a sadness that I'd never felt before. It was achingly hard to keep things from Rocky, but I had to. I could not let these times be ruined by disaster.

I heard Rocky's footsteps heading towards me and I quickly shoved my journal back into my drawer and wiped my eyes. When he walked in I appeared to be checking my Instagram.

"Dinner is almost ready, babe."

"YAYY!" I smiled.

He kissed me softly and then took my hand to lead me to the kitchen.

The smell of pasta overtook me and I smiled.

"Ohhh is this Mama Lynch's recipe?"

"It is." He smiled.

"Mmmmmm."

"Stay right here. I'll be back."

"Okay!" I replied as I kissed him.

Rocky's POV

I went into my room and put my head into my hands. We had to tell Ross that Nicki was pregnant. I knew that he loved Amanda, but I was worried. He moved on too fast.

Then I started thinking about the fact that I was going to be a father. I was excited, there was no doubt about that, but was I ready for that? Could I raise a baby with Nicki? Would the baby cause us to fight? I'd always heard horror stories about how after having a baby, couples get into it more.

How am I, Rocky Lynch, going to take care of a baby?

I didn't know how I was going to do this. I knew for sure that Nicki would be a fantastic mother. My reaction to her announcement was all real. I wasn't faking. But now I don't know what to do. I'm scared that I'll do it all wrong.

But something else bothered me. Why did I get this strange feeling that Nicki was keeping something important from me? Something that I needed to know? I knew that she would never do anything to hurt me, but why would she keep something from me? Was it for my own good?

All of these questions bounced around in my head and threatened to make me break down. I was so nervous. Maybe I should tell her how I'm feeling.

Gosh. Life is difficult sometimes.