hi, this is alice.
what's going on noa? i haven't heard from you in ages… you don't call me anymore. you ignore me whenever i say hi to you at school. you're never at the playground…
is it something that i've said? noa… i'm sorry if what i have said had… pained you in anyway. i guess, it was sort of a surprise. and maybe i was a bit… disappointed, not to mention harsh. what you did to that child you bullied. what you didn't do for the child who was bullied. i guess i was hoping that you were the hero in the story. that you're the one who had saved the kid in the end. a happy ending. but you couldn't. you didn't...
i know. i know that you're not like that anymore. that the past is the past. and this happened before we even had met so i can't say anything. but i don't know…
all i know is that right now is that i'm been ignorant and that this… tension or this gap that is between us right now it not your fault. it's mine. so i'm sorry. i'm sorry that i wasn't willing to accept the less-noa-than-usual side of you. your flaws. i'm sorry that i had imposed to picture-perfect ideal of yourself just so i can feel …secure. i'm sorry. i'm sorry. i'm sorry.
and i know, noa. that you're the only person that i can truly depend upon in this whole world. did you know this too? was it that obvious? but you have to know this noa, i'm not the one that can forgive you for what you did. if i could i would, but i don't have the right. so noa…
"shut up."
noa?
"shut up. don't call me anymore"
come on noa, don't be such an ass.
"I SAID SHUT THE FUCK UP"
…
you know noa, you're also not the one to say anything. i'm saying that you also had been incredibly ignorant. that you have been a fool. do you know what people say behind you back? about you and your girlfriend? about you and elizabeth? do you?
"… shut up, alice. don't you dare."
they say that she's cheating on you noa. did you know that? that she had been cheating on you the whole time but you're the only one in the school who didn't know. remember the last time you told me how everyone was giving you a weird look. well, now you know. and now you're not the only who didn't know the truth.
but i think that's a lie noa. i think you do know. i think you feigning innocence. that if you close your eyes and ears to everything, that they'll soon disappear… don't be a fool noa, this is reality. this is life. and in life, dreams rarely come true.
"… like you know anything."
… yes i do know. because that's what i tell myself everyday… don't be a fool alice, don't be a fool.
