hi, this is alice.
but today, i'm not just alice. today i'm 'alice who's faring quite badly'. no it's not because you didn't pick up your phone last time. i understand. you had problems yourself, i'm sorry i didn't realize. and i guess you didn't want to hear me cry everytime i call. but i promise you, that i'm not going to cry tonight. not tonight. but i can't promise that i would smile either. because it's hard, and i haven't got the energy right now. no. i don't
tonight i'm 'alice who's faring quite badly' because the only thing that i've ever trusted had failed me. and i am lost. lost in the abyss of confusion and misconception. in the horror of a wanderer with no home. with the love of the mistress with no affair. you may think that i'm being dramatic. i really hope that it's like that.
good night. maybe if the night is welcoming, there might be stars to guide me.
but i'm just being hopeful. i'm just being me.
