Damaged

Chapter 5

As I ran down the street all I could think is that I was lied to. I was upset sad and disappointed in myself. Nothing could repair me. No amount of apologies could make it better. He lied to me. I should've known it was a lie.

I got home and my phone blew up with text messages. I picked it up and it was Zander. How could he have the guts to fucking text my ass. He has no reason to.

*Text messages between Jax and Zander**

Jax: What do you want Zander?
Zander: What happened?
Jax: You should know.
Zander: No I don't Jax.
Jax: You stood happy when you punched me.
Zander: Oh yeah. I didn't I swear Jax.
Jax: How should I believe you?
Zander: I don't know?
Jax: Well when you do tell me. Bye.
Zander: Please don't leave. Jax.
Zander: Jax?

I looked down at the phone. He kept asking for me. He kept texting my name. "Sweety dinner is ready. Come on down hear." My mom called for me. I was glad my dad wasn't here. He is always making it hard on me. "I'll be down there in five. Okay mom." I yelled down the stairs. All she yelled up was that my dad was going to be here and that I need to hurry. I rolled my eyes and said the original 'okay'. God I hope my mom figures out my dad is a dick to me.

I got some shorts and a Chicago Bears T-shirt. Which is my favorite football team. I washed my face so it won't be noticeable that I cried. I looked up at the mirror and said "better than nothing". I rushed down stairs to find everyone but me at the table. "What took you so long sweety?" My mom asked in the most sweetest voice ever. I love my mom. "Oh I just had to change and well I couldn't find my shorts. Sorry mom." I said as I got my plate and sat myself next to my mom. "J why don't you sit next to your pops. Huh?" He asked me. All I did was stare at my food and ate. Deep inside I knew what the next conversation was going to be. "Look at me when I'm talking to you J!" My dad shouted at me. I looked up and yelled back. "What do you want? All you know what to do is to treat me like shit dad! So why should I look at you!" He looked shocked and reached over the table to slap me. I ducked and he sang his arm at the air. "Oh you stupid little shit face!" He yelled at me. I looked up. I hate him. "Pack your stuff! You no longer live here!" My dad told me. "FINE AT LEAST I WONT BE ABUSED!" I yelled as I ran up the stairs.

I got a suitcase and packed all my clothes and got my phone and charger. I got my favorite stuffed animal. "I could never leave you George the monkey." I said it to him. I got a pillow and cover. And headed down the stairs. "Sweety no don't leave us." My mom begged me. "Sorry mom but I can't live with someone that hates me enough to kick me out of my own house I grew up in." I responded. My mom's eyes began to water up. "Bye little sis." I walked towards my sister Laraine. "I'll miss you okay." I gave her a kiss on the forehead. "I'll miss you too brother." Laraine told me. She was to young to understand why I was leaving. I walked towards the door and exited.

All I heared was my mom saying she was leaving with me and so was Laraine. My dad of course yelled at her and slaped my mom. I ran as far as I could. I didn't want to be a part of it. I got my phone out. I called the only person I knew would accept me in their house. Zander.

Zander: Hello?
Jax: I need a place to stay maybe for awhile.
Zander: Come over. My mom doesn't know were in a fight. Let me just ask her. Okay?
Jax: Okay.

I texted back. I knew I was making a bad mistake but I learned something today. When your life begins to fall apart or become damaged your best friend will always be there no matter if in your a fight.

Zander: My mom said it's okay if you stay for a while. She said you can stay till you know were to go.
Jax: Thanks. I'll be there in five or so.

Zander is the sweetest. Maybe he didn't really become e happy after the punch. Something was fishy.

I got to Zander's house. He was standing their. He looked like he was dying. Just there. Standing there in the freezing air. He looked sad. But why. I ran with the pillow and cover in one hand and my suitcase in the other. "Hurry it's cold!" Zander yelled. He seemed happy that I was going to live with him for a while. He is the sweetest.

As we entered his house his mom greeted me. "Oh Jax why are you living with us for awhile what happened at home Jax?" His mom asked me. Zander turned over and looked at her. He gave her a nasty glare. "Mom that is not what you ask someone who got kicked out." Zander whispered the last part. But he was right I really didn't want to talk about it. "I really don't wanna talk about it. Sorry." I responded. She seemed fine with it. She brought me coffee. "Oh how sweet my favorite warm beverage." I said enthusiastic. Zander turned and snorted out a laugh.

We walked towards his room to settle in. "We can hang hear for a while Jax." Zander responded in a tone of him not really being happy I'm here. "Zander please look at me?" I asked him. I got him by his chin and told him how sorry I was. "I'm sorry I treated you like that Jax. Can you forgive me?" Zander asked me. I still had him by his chin and kissed him. He was the only one for me. Not Xavier. "I forgive you Zander" I responded in a soft lovable tone. I kissed him befor I went to bed. I got butterflies in my stomach once my lips were pressed against his.