Damaged

Chapter 6

I was confused. I know I had something with Zander but I blew that. Then I met Xavier. He made me feel special. But know Kevin came around. What is going on in my head.

I pulled away real quick. "What's wrong Jax?" Zander asked me in concern. I didn't know what to say. I was confused. I like and I'm dating Xavier but  Zander in my head was a confusion. It was giving me a headache. And a bad one. "Sorry it's not you it's me. My head is killing me."  I responded after five minutes. He looked all concerned and shit. My head was saying why the hell does he care but my heart said differently. "Oh come with me. My mom has a good medicine for headaches." Zander looked at me and said. He got up and stretched his hand out to help me get up. How sweet of him.

As we walked down the stairs I told him "was the medicine pain killers. Because if you didn't know by know I'm a guy. I don't get periods okay." He grinned at the comment. After the period comment he cracked up. "Your to funny Jax. I missed these moments." Zander responded in a sentimental manner. "Made this conversation go from funny to sad and depressing 0-100 real quick Zander." I said with a smirk.

As we got to the bottom step I heared a familiar voice. A deep and groggy voice. "Stop!" I whispered yelled. If that makes sense. "Why? What happened?" Zander asked in a silent voice. "The manly voice. You hear it right? It's familiar." I responded. Zander looked at me and just nodded. He wasn't helping with the nod. But what ever. "So is he here Sarah!?" The manly voice yelled at Zander's mom. At this point I was angry. I reveled myself.

"What the fuck are you thinking. She isn't your wife you asshole!" I yelled as me and Zander walked the last few steps. I have revealed myself to the man. It was my dad.

"And who do you think your talking to mister!" My dad asked. He was angry at this point as well. But i gave zero fucks about it. "To your ugly lying face bitch!" I responded. He looked down to were my face was. I was looking down at the floor. I really didn't want to make eye contact with him.

His hand pulled out for my face. He grabbed me the way you would grab someone to make fish faces. "Look at me when I'm speaking to you! You little brat!" He yelled at me. The last word made his spit go flying into my face. It was nasty. Like really nasty. "That's what I thought you don't want to speak!" My dad yelled at me. He looked right into my eyes. "Leave him alone sir! That is manhandling a kid sir!" Zander yelled at my dad.

My dad turned to look at Zander. He got him by his forearm. As my dad yelled at both of us Zander's mom started yelling to let both of us go. "You stay out of this! You little hoe!" My dad yelled at her. He stretched his leg and kicked her. Right in the stomach. She was unconscious. My dads shouts weren't loud enough to cover the footsteps coming down the stairs. Zander's dad. He was more of a father than my dad was ever. He thought me how to defend myself. He also would be the one at a father and son meeting.

"What is going on!" His dad yelled. He picked up his head and gasped at the sight. He turned to his wife unconscious body and my dad manhandling me and Zander. "Let them go at this instance!" He yelled with anger in his eyes. "I'll leave your son but I'm taking mine!" My dad screamed back. "No your not. You kicked me out of the house. And I don't want to face mom yet. She might be hurt." I told my dad as he had loosen his grip on me. "What are you talking about Jax. Let's go!" My dad yelled. "No I'm living here. And well you abuse mom. Did you really think I wasn't going to notice one day?" He looked at me and shake his head.

He begged for me to come home. He said he yelled because of a hard day at work. I knew he lied to me. I ran up the stairs crying to my room. I didn't want to leave this safe haven. "Jax! Please come home! Jax!" Is all I heared other than Zander's dad kicking my dad out of his house.

I entered my room and locked the door. I slid down the door. In tears were my eyes. My dad dint care about me or my feelings. Or others feelings. Fuck it. I thought. I walked towards my back pack. Which was laying on a corner filled with books. I thought it would be a good idea. I looked for my sharpener. I found it in a deep pocket filled with giant books. It was broken either way. "Since I'm not accepted and I'll just experience more horrible paths and emotional break downs why not kill your self Jax!" I yelled. Yet I was quiet about it. I took the blade from the big sharpener. I got the sharp side and dragged it down my forearm. It was a big cut. Starting at my vain in the back of my elbow to the vain of the wrist. It bled like crazy. But yet it burned. I tried washing my face but every time the water hit my cut it burned. So I didn't.

"Open the door please Jax!" Zander yelled. "I've been asking for the past few minutes. We need to talk to you!" Zander yelled. "Okay I'll be there in five!" I yelled as I walked towards my suitcase. I got it out. I knew I was going to be kicked out. So why not do it know. I got my suitcase. I walked towards the door unlocked it. I ran to the window and threw my suit case out first. Then Zander walked in. He noticed the blood stains on the carpet. "Jax please don't do what your going to do!" Zander yelled. He started walking towards me. I guess he thought he would have scared me if he ran. "Sorry Zander! I can't do it!" I told him. "Do what he asked as I jumped out the window. "Jax! No!" Zander yelled as he started crying.

**November (about three weeks later)**