Damaged

Chapter 32

I felt guilty. I felt like vomiting. I did something horrible. I just want a normal life is that to much to ask for God. Xavier and Selena don't know but I do know what I did. And when I tell Xavier I was going to go straight to hell. 

"So I was thinking that like Andrew isn't a drinker we should give him a taste of it. Huh Andrew?" Xavier nudged him with his shoulder and he just nodded. "Okay so we will stay right?" Selena asked us. I just nodded. There was two beds.

 Okay I was feeling even more guilty know that Andrew is going to stay. KNowing that the guy I cheated on was going to be staying in the same room. I was terrified for tonight. I want to go home. I don't wanna stay here anymore. 

As we opened the hotel room Xavier pushed me in and closed the door. I looked at him terrified not knowing what was going to happen. "Xavier what are you doing?" I looked at him and fear and he spotted it out quickly. "Why are you scared Jax?" He asked me. And I laid there looking as dumb as I could possibly be with no answer to tell him.

"Come here." Xavier tried pulling me in for a kiss and I pulled away. He looked at me. "What was that about Jax?" He was surprised I pulled away. I just stood there not knowing what to say. All I wanted was to be home. Graduate and leave and-. Wait Xavier and I are going to the same college. Know I really want to die. 

I fell onto my knees. "Jax what is wrong?" He ran my way. I looked at him. I couldn't even look at him for more than three seconds without feeling like a bitch and bad. "I am so sorry Xavier." I said he looked confused. But I said nothing. "About what?" He asked me. Could I tell him and ruin our love. Would he never want to talk to me. I want to know what would happen. 

"Jax tell me please?" He smed thinking it was funny. But it wasn't. I was a cheater. And I knew I would feel bad either way. Keeping the secret or telling him the secret. "Xavier I cheated on you!" I said loudly. And I saw Andrew and Selena run into the room. "What?!" Selena yelled. But I was in tears and I couldn't look at both of them. Not at Xavier nor Andrew knowing I broke Xavier's trust and maybe hurt Andrew for saying what happened. 

"What do you mean you cheated on me Jax?" Xavier really was getting mad but not at me. But I knew as soon as he was done with Andrew I was next. "I had sex with someone that wasn't you and that is why I pulled away Xavier!" Xavier saw me break into tears. "With who Jax?" His teeth stayed together but he spoke. "Andrew." I said with no hesitation. I hurt myself and Xavier. "Please don't hurt him I was the idiot who kissed him first Xavier!" I stopped him before he went to Andrew. 

"Why so you can have more of him!" He looked at me. I looked back and he made me feel even worse than I felt. "You dick!" I said getting out of the room. Xavier looked mad and surprised. "Jax wait!" I heared Selena say running towards me. I looked over at her. "No Selena he made me feel worse than I felt." I said looking forward. She stopped me. "Listen you little fuck. You made a mistake and he isn't taking it the right way okay. So what you're going to run away because that is all you seem to be good at." Selena's words hurt more than she realized. 

"Leave me alone bitch!" I walked away and I wasn't even in the mood to argue. Because honestly, I hate them. They are always making me feel bad. And that isn't nice. But before I got out the floor and onto the elevator Andrew caught u to me. "What do you want?" I asked him. He looked at me for awhile. Then he kissed me. And I went for it as well. 

A/n: Guys I am sorry but I want to leave these next five days for a little time for this story to get a good idea because when I come back the ending is coming. Anyways. See you guys on the 26th of December. Love you <3. Byeeee!