Damaged

Chapter 21

As the shriek let out of her mouth I turned. "MOM!" I yelled out. But what was I suppose to do. She was already on the other side of the car. And that car was long gone from here. 

I ran to her body. It was just there. Lid on the floor. But why? Why to me? Couldn't this happen to anyone else but me. I hated this day. This day my mom had been hit bad. I hated this about life. There was never an explanation to what happens. 

"Mom I am so sorry I let this happen to you. Somebody please help me!" I called out for help. All I wanted right know was help. For my mom to be in a hospital. Being treated on. 

i put my hand behind her head,and held it close. But as soon as I let go, I saw all the blood from her head. I sobbed even harder. "Kid what happened?" Some random lady asked me. I looked up at her and looked he in the eye. "She got...run over." I cried even harder. She pulled out her phone and put it near her ear and asked for an ambulance.

As they got closer to us the sirens grew louder. It hurt my ears. The loud sirens. "Help!" Is all I yelled every time I wanted some one to come or when I saw the blood on my hands. 

The ambulance got me by my arms and dragged me away from her. I even cried and kicked for them to let me go. "You have to inform my sister Loren. She is at school. But I don't know which one." I yelled. 

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After a couple of days in the hospital my moms doctor came to me and Loren. "Hey kids." He said cheerfully. All I wanted was good news. Not any bad news. "So your mom she was hit by the car and well a piece of glass had stabbed her in the back of the head." He looked down. Tears left my eyes. "So what are you saying." I asked the doctor. "She is dead kids." Me and Loren began crying even more this time. We didn't want to say good bye to our mom. Not yet though.

**The Funeral**

I looked around. Mostly our family was here. Even our uncle Bob. He really didn't like my mother but he wasn't going to be a jerk either. "Sorry kids." My grandmother said. "It is okay grandma. Me and Loren are okay." I said not looking at either Loren or my grandma. "Well I hope you guys have a nice life while she is gone." My grandma was a little weird. I knew for a fact I wasn't going to live with her. 

"Why Jax. Why did you run?" Loren asked me. I looked at he and got up. I walked away. I knew I walked away as the priest talked. I saw some one follow me. I looked back. No one was there. "Hello can I help you. I want to be alone." I said out loud. "Yes you can." A familiar voice came fro behind the wall. A voice I hadn't heared in the longest time. "Xavier?" I called out. "You guessed it." He walked out. I looked at him nasty. "How did you know it was happening today?" I asked. "Selena told me. She said that it would be good if I came instead of her." He explained it all to me. But as he spoke the more I missed the kid.

I walked away. Mid conversation and all. "Jax please listen to me." Xavier yelled out. "What the hell do you want!" I scram at him. He backed away from me slowly. "What do you want Xavier. First I call you and then the next day some guy named Carlos or wait Richard calls me giving me death threats and you say you miss me lot but in reality you don't!" I was pissed at him. I didn't even turn to him.

He kept following me. But I ignored it. I walked into the guys restroom and shut the door. "Jax!" Xavier called out for me. I stopped. I opened the door and took him inside. I locked the door behind us. "Fuck it! I missed you!" I said as loud yet quiet as possible. I leaned in and kissed him. 

We made out for about a good hour or so. God I missed his lips pressed against mine. "What was that about?" Xavier asked me. "Sh. Just enjoy it." We leaned in and kept making out. I had no idea why I was doing what I was doing. I guess because I was sad and depressed from my mothers death and needed somebody by me. "Xavier how about you move in with us?" I asked him. I made a line on his chest. "I really want to be with you Jax but not in this way." Xavier said. He stayed close to me. 

I pushed him away. "This was a mistake. Ever meeting you was mistake." I got my jacket of the floor and walked out the restroom. "Jax." He called out once again. Your a fucking idiot Jax. I thought to myself. It was true I was an idiot to think me and Xavier would happen and it would be a nice time. But it is always seems to good to be true. 

I walked to were me and Loren were sitting at. I took my seat and looked forwards. "What happened to you. You seem mad." Loren told me. "I had a talk with some one and it didn't turn out the way I wanted it to." I still looked forwards and made no ye contact with any one. I was to pissed to any ways.

After the mass my cousin,Rainey,too us to were they were going to barrie her. "How I wish I never ran." I said out loud. The whole car seemed to look at me. "What do you mean?" Rainey said. I just ignored her. With everything going on right know it wasn't a good time to explain. "Jax. I asked you a question." Rainey kept telling me. "What Rainey. I have deal with a lot today. So I would like if you were to leave me alone." I looked at her and turned away. Fury was in my eyes.

After they buried my mom I was just sitting on a park bench. I saw Xavier walking my way. "What do you want Xavier?" I said looking away. I was to angry at him right know to even look at him. "Sorry. I guess I really felt under pressure at the time." He said as he sat next to me. "Look i didn't mean to say that. I like you but as a friend." As those words left his mouth I knew he was lying to me. "Jax please speak to me. "You are lying to me. And I know it." I turned and looked at him. "I guess you might be right." Xavier said. But I said nothing. All I did was press my lips on his.