Damaged

Chapter 34

I know it sounds crazy taking Zander on the trip but I wasn't the one who proposed the idea to take him okay. It was Xavier. But only God knows why. But I guess I wasn't all that sad about it. I was just bothered about taking him. 

As we got to where my graduation was going to be at my aunt got off with me. "I know you are mad at me about the ring and all but don't be. It is your big day. The day you graduate and start living your life." I looked at her. And she wa right. I shouldn't let anything bother me today. It was the day I have waited since I started school. 

"Thanks aunt. All I needed was that little talk. And maybe you were right about the ring. He has been a jerk." She was surprised I said that. "No everyday I left you at school you would wear it and so would Zander. I always saw it on him. Everyday. Look." She pulled out her phone to show me. I was surprised. I didn't think he still used it. But I didn't care.

As I pulled it off my finger I got a glimpse at Zander as he walked towards the building. My first reaction was a smile then I looked at his finger. HE had it. But the question was should I keep it on. Many questions bounced in my head. I didn't know what to do. 

I was stumped. Should I ask him or just take it off. It took awhile. But I knew what to do. "Zander!" I called out. I saw him turn to me. His eyes and mine began just staring at each other. I swallowed and walked up to him. He did the exact same thing. "I saw the ring." He caught me playing around with my fingers. "What you nervous about Jax?" As I heared his voice only one thought popped up. He knew me really well. I never knew that he knew that.

"How did you know I do that when I am nervous?" I looked him straight in the eyes. He looked at me back but more with a romantic glare. "I know you like the back of my palm Jax. And when we got our rings you favored that finger to mess around with when you are nervous." He got my hands and held them. I became even more confused. Especially knowing with what I did last night with Xavier and Andrew. 

"I am wearing it because like e said no matter what happens it connects us somehow." He said while he held my arms. But all I did was look at the floor. I couldn't look at him neither Andrew or Xavier. I want a normal life. But as soon as that wish is granted it is taken away. "Sorry I can't." I said under a deep breath. "You can't what Jax?" He chuckled a little. "I can't do it anymore. I can't live like this." I shaked my way out of his grip and I walked away sad but not crying. 

I walked into the building and I saw every single person in my class. I wanted this day so bad. But not like this. And lucky for me I was right next to Andrew. One of the three guys I couldn't look at anymore. 

Graduation was over and I was let free. But how was I supposed to go on a long road trip with these people I couldn't look at. Selena was okay but Xavier, Andrew and Zander was another story. But I needed to face it. But choosing one was harder.