Damaged

Chapter 28

"Are you okay Jax?" Xavier asked me in concern. But I wouldn't answer him. I wanted to be alone. "Why Xavier? Why did they call me a freak and psychopath! Why?" I could have wished for a better day at school but it wasn't meant to. I was cursed with a bad life wasn't I? 

"Why Xavier?" I just repeated myself over and over. "I don't know why Jax." He kept answering but I knew and he knew the reason why they called me those names.  "You know Xavier quite lying to me!" I broke out. I was mad. I couldn't hold it in no more. I needed to know. Bt he kept refusing to tell me why. 

"Look Jax they find out you went to rehab!" Xavier scram. But why I was screaming cause I was frustrated on all this commotion that I had today. "How?" I backed up and my faced widened. How? How did they all find out? "Someone snitched about it." He kept getting on his tiptoes and bitted his lip as he did. "You snitched!" I was furious about it. He stood there quiet about it tho and that made even more furious. 

"Why Xavier? Answer me that!" I was just mad. I told him because I trusted him. But I thought wrong. "Someone asked me why you left. That's why." I looked at him in a serious way. He stood there. He knew I was going to say something messed up. "Please forgive me Jax? Please?" He begged me for so long. "No. You screwed up this time Xavier. Just please-don't ever talk to me." I walked away to clean my face up. But before I walked away I saw his face drop when the words "please-don't talk" left my mouth. My face also dropped when I entered the restroom. 

I looked around the bathroom and just thought about how this is where I belong. I am not saying I belong in the bathroom I meant that this here in Texas. With my family. I thought it would be different but it wasn't it was the same as when I left to Los Angeles. Same bullies and same problems. I hate it tho. The bullies and problems. I heared the bell ring letting us juniors go to lunch. So I walked out of the restroom and thru my hoodie on and walked to lunch.

It was full. Every table was already taken and claimed by every group you could think of. The jocks and cheerleaders too up the left side and the anime lovers another and then the soccer players that don't get along with the jocks in another. They were all spread out. But I looked in the distance and saw a table all alone. I hoped no one would get it.

As I got in line to get food I kept my head down. "Hey you are new here aren't you?" A heared a voice come from right behind me. But to the voice I nodded. "Hey you shy?" The poor guy needed a friend. So I turned. "No just had a bad day so far." The kid looked at me in confusion. "How you probably know like none of them." So that is what he thought. But I knew all these kids who were laid in front of me. "Trust me I know these ids probably better than you do." He was still confused. So I guessed he needed a little bit of information so I gave it to him. 

"I use to got to school with these kids in junior high and then I left to Los  Angeles."  I explained. But I knew exactly what he was going to ask why I left. "And why I left was because my mom died and the family we were with had mistreated us." The kid was surprised at what I said. "You are fake. You didn't live thru that." The kid started laughing. But when he did Selena was right by me and I didn't even know. "Why are you laughing at this kid. He has no parents bro!" Selena was pissed off. And that shut the kid up.

Selena actually sat with me so I didn't feel so lonely anymore. "So why did you tell Xavier say that." I had shrugged my shoulders up not knowing the real reason. "He said because someone asked why I left." I looked around and saw that Xavier was actually having a good time. And I was proud of him for doing so. It wasn't like I cared how he felt. But you could tell I hurt him badly under the smiles he faked.

** A year later **

 It actually was going well these past year in my new school. Zander really didn't notice me anymore but that is also because my aunt pulled out a restraining order on him and it was actually more peaceful without him bothering me or sexually harassing me in the restroom when it was only us two. I bet he wished he never sent that last nude he sent to me a couple of weeks ago.